How many 'comebacks' has it been already?
I was never completely gone, just that there was nothing to blog about. That's right, my life is THAT boring. And the reason I've not been visiting your blogs or commenting on posts, the same reason why I was avoiding messages from dating sites and msn. I was in hiding. It's the easy way out, instead of having to deal with confrontation and mixed feelings.
I do want to meet that special someone, and I know staying to myself isn't going to get me anywhere. But somehow I just can't find the motivation to chat and get to know people. So how the hell am I going to meet that so called 'knight in shining armor'?
And being discreet doesn't help my case either. I think I act TOO straight. No guy has ever hit on me, possibly in fear that they would get humiliated for chatting up a str8 guy. Or perhaps it could be my lack of appeal, but I don't think I'm THAT bad LOL.
On rare occasions when a guy I met online did show intentions toward me, I instinctively push them away. Totally amazed at how desperately hopeful I am in seeking a guy BUT completely cold and heartless at the same time. You know I might actually be bipolar. That would explain a lot of things.......
I have a horrible feeling that I'm going to grow old and die alone. Hahahaha tragic isn't it?
Well at least I will have many years to get used to it.
Don't worry I'm not emo, I feel surprisingly calm actually.
On another note, despite acting discreet, I have never felt more gay in my entire life. :P
the comeback song!
straight acting gay are hot! hahaha.. and if you are gay, then you will know how to look appealing! i trust gay men's style more than girls.. no need to rush things, if it comes it comes, while waiting for it to come just live your life to the fullest lor, hangout with straight friends, go shopping and everything.. and when an opportunity is here(know or unknowingly), try it our first lor, dont shut that person out just like that because youre cold, i mean.. nothing wrong to try, give your self options lor.. he might be the one also you might never know :) if you fail ne.. that means you have issues with yourself lor(like the fact that you know that youre cold and heartless yet do nothing about it).. which you have to overcome it before committing in a relationship! all the best J-boy!!
ReplyDelete❤ Tuls ❤
Listening to Britney is not really that gay...
ReplyDeleteWelcome back to you !
Salamat kambali lagi.... and i agree with Tuls.
ReplyDeleteAlrite Tuls, i'll try out as many guys as I can hahahaha :P
ReplyDelete@CX & Whizkid: Thanks much! :)