Sorry for not updating or responding to comments sooner. Lately I feel sick of myself, I didn't think it was possible, but I just don't want to talk about me anymore. Perhaps it's a part of the avoidance from existing issues I talked about in the previous post. Ughh. Let's talk about other things for now.
Counting down the days to the Singapore trip, quite hard to believe I get to see Kylie Minogue in concert so very soon. It will be a night to remember, as Barney from How I Met Your Mother would say, it's going to be Legend... wait for it... dary!!!! I think I need to pinch / bitch slap myself to realize that this isn't a dream.
Will probably take a break from blogging indefinitely, but I will still hop around and leave comments on your fabulous blogs. :)
Lotsa Luve,
J-boy
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Guilt Takes Over Me
So drama. LOL.
The thing is... I have been avoiding this guy for some time now. A guy that I liked (past tense), but don't feel anything for him anymore. He still likes me, so I don't know how to tell him. We communicate through MSN, some time ago his home internet connection was down so we didn't talk for a few days, and I used that opportunity to avoid him.
Since then, I have been appearing offline to him. He left me a message right after his connection was restored, explaining why he was missing and said that he missed me. I was hoping that he would get the message if I just 'disappeared' from his life. It's brutal of me, I know.
I was never good at delivering bad news.
Just don't have the heart for it when things get personal.
It seems easier to lay low and avoid the confrontation.
Everybody wants to be the good guy. I don't want to be a mean bitch by saying I don't like him anymore for no valid reason.
The problem here is time. If I faced it earlier and confronted him about it sooner, things wouldn't get so draggy. But now because the period has extended, I feel like the moment has passed and there isn't a right time to talk to him anymore. And the longer this situation goes on, the weight just seems to get heavier. Hence the guilt.
And it's not just him. I appear offline to a number of people I met online whom I find annoying. Some of them just keep pestering me with the same questions or suggestions to meet up or hook up, or sometimes I just feel lazy to make small talk. Over time I would rather not talk to them at all.
Does this make me a bad person? :(
The thing is... I have been avoiding this guy for some time now. A guy that I liked (past tense), but don't feel anything for him anymore. He still likes me, so I don't know how to tell him. We communicate through MSN, some time ago his home internet connection was down so we didn't talk for a few days, and I used that opportunity to avoid him.
Since then, I have been appearing offline to him. He left me a message right after his connection was restored, explaining why he was missing and said that he missed me. I was hoping that he would get the message if I just 'disappeared' from his life. It's brutal of me, I know.
I was never good at delivering bad news.
Just don't have the heart for it when things get personal.
It seems easier to lay low and avoid the confrontation.
Everybody wants to be the good guy. I don't want to be a mean bitch by saying I don't like him anymore for no valid reason.
The problem here is time. If I faced it earlier and confronted him about it sooner, things wouldn't get so draggy. But now because the period has extended, I feel like the moment has passed and there isn't a right time to talk to him anymore. And the longer this situation goes on, the weight just seems to get heavier. Hence the guilt.
And it's not just him. I appear offline to a number of people I met online whom I find annoying. Some of them just keep pestering me with the same questions or suggestions to meet up or hook up, or sometimes I just feel lazy to make small talk. Over time I would rather not talk to them at all.
Does this make me a bad person? :(
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Just Like Holly Holiday
Sorry for not updating regularly, it's because nothing blog worthy has happened.
There's no man in my life now... I seem to be pushing anyone that comes near me away, so yeah... I'm like the opposite of a magnet, I'm an anti-man magnet.
I'm like Holly Holiday (Gwyneth Paltrow rocks!), with the fear of commitment. The minute things start to get serious with someone, I pull out. I'm a substitute. Permanent ain't my cup of tea. Guess I don't want a relationship after all. It's over rated anyway. It gets a little lonely at times, but overall I'm happy with the perks of being single :)
OK maybe dying alone is depressing, but I'll only think about that in a few decades.
Getting really excited about my Singapore trip now as the date draws closer and closer!! :)
It's nice to have something to look forward to when life is so monotonous and stale at the moment. Ready to shake my ass and put my hands up for Ms.Kylie!! whoop whoop
Something random I wanted to say... I noticed there are more and more plu bloggers joining the community, and most of them are still so young!! It's a good thing, I wished I had access to all the information and exposure at an earlier age, then maybe I wouldn't have wasted so many years.
Blogging is a place to confide, to share things that you otherwise wouldn't be able to talk about to anyone else. So keep up the good work comrades, I really do enjoy reading your entries! ;)
There's no man in my life now... I seem to be pushing anyone that comes near me away, so yeah... I'm like the opposite of a magnet, I'm an anti-man magnet.
I'm like Holly Holiday (Gwyneth Paltrow rocks!), with the fear of commitment. The minute things start to get serious with someone, I pull out. I'm a substitute. Permanent ain't my cup of tea. Guess I don't want a relationship after all. It's over rated anyway. It gets a little lonely at times, but overall I'm happy with the perks of being single :)
OK maybe dying alone is depressing, but I'll only think about that in a few decades.
Getting really excited about my Singapore trip now as the date draws closer and closer!! :)
It's nice to have something to look forward to when life is so monotonous and stale at the moment. Ready to shake my ass and put my hands up for Ms.Kylie!! whoop whoop
Something random I wanted to say... I noticed there are more and more plu bloggers joining the community, and most of them are still so young!! It's a good thing, I wished I had access to all the information and exposure at an earlier age, then maybe I wouldn't have wasted so many years.
Blogging is a place to confide, to share things that you otherwise wouldn't be able to talk about to anyone else. So keep up the good work comrades, I really do enjoy reading your entries! ;)
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