Meeting more Bloggers

Ughh, the title is so generic and predictable, but I'm too lazy to think of something fancy.

Met up with young boys yesterday hahaha.. I CANNOT believe I was the oldest in the bunch, because normally I'm the Y&C one LOL...

First up is the nun sista aka LeoNut, who I've been dying to ninja chop and scare, because I have the element of surprise as none of them know how I look like. But boohoo I failed at scaring anyone of them LOL :P

Then there was Top Chef: Just Desserts Alex hahaha, who was tall and I love his shoes... But what I loved most was the CAKE that Alex graciously brought for us to sample, it was super YUMSSSS, like those you get at fancy eateries :P Thank you Alex!! If we were in a survival contest like Hunger games, I would choose to kill you last because of your culinary skills hahaha :P 

And not forgetting Tempus, who was the tallest of them all haha, but don't worry Tempus, I don't think it's a bad thing at all!! Being blessed with height has its perks ;) Like how you can kick all those little bitches away hahaha.. It was a pleasure to meet you!

We watched The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey at Pavilion. OK the movie was a little long, but being a fan of the franchise made it fun to see all the details and back story they gave, and I like how they quoted so many lines from the book directly. I didn't actually read the book, but I had a graphic novel version haha, and the resemblance was uncanny :P

If you read LeoNut's post, our original plan was to ogle at hot guys at h&m and to hunt for jockstraps hahaha, but it wasn't eventful. The crowd was surprisingly thin at h&m, I think all the hotties have already been there and moved on. As for the underwear, we didn't have enough time to do it. So that will have to wait for our next outing!!

Had Christmas party at the office today. Food was actually quite good, and my boss bought us all ice cream from Ben's, but it was slightly melted by the time he got back to the office. As for the gift exchange, I got something that was totally WTF =.='''' A woman's cosmetic bag from Vincci........ seriously the girl that bought it clearly didn't think it through... For this type of gift exchange, obviously you need to buy something unisex or general which can be used by anyone right........ Oh well..... :P

Till then, I wanna wish everyone a very merry Christmas!! May you be showered with warmth and love and GIFTS this holiday season hehehe :)

XOXO   

I'm Fabulous

Hahahahahaha okay maybe I'm not that fab, but being plu does entitle us a certain level of fabu-ness right? :P

Let me tell you what happened today.

I went to h&m at BB, again haha since I was free. I noticed more and more straight people are shopping there, and by straight I mean innocent, clueless straight dudes being dragged around the store while their girlfriends pick clothes from the racks and get them to try it on.

A certain bitch (in this case a girl, not fabulous gay) gave me a stare when I walked by her, and she immediately looked at her bf and said 'This place is filled with queers.' It was loud enough for me to hear.. Initially I felt somewhat offended and wanted to give her a piece of my mind, but then I just walked away, because I was too lazy to be bothered.

On deeper thought, I realized it's actually a compliment. Here's why.

To you people that have a problem with people like us, you should know that we are the true taste makers and the reason why the fashion industry (and other finer things in life) exists and is thriving. I'm so glad that I don't need a girl to teach me how to dress or what looks good on me, and heck I probably can dress better than you (mean girls) and have nicer and much longer legs than you do. So the next time you want to give a judgmental look to an innocent shopper at a place like h&m, take a look around you, because for once, you are the minority and the odd one out.

XOXO
Fabulous for today, J-boy ;)


  

Losing Interest

For a moment I thought that I was losing interest in men. But then, I checked, and realized I'm still not attracted to women. Then I switched on gay porn, I was still aroused.

But I'm losing interest in sex.

I just did it on Sunday. Went to the new place as planned. Nice and relaxing ambiance, it was well lit and decorated just like a spa. Maybe that put me off a little because it wasn't as skanky and dim like a dark alley LOL.

A really lovely guy chatted me up in the jacuzzi. Slightly older, taller than me, decent body, cute face. Normally I would jump at (or onto) that. Obviously he intended to have sex, otherwise he wouldn't have approached me. But I wasn't used to the fact that he spent so much time on small talk (not sex related). He talked about himself, what he did for a living, where he was from, etc. Normally guys that go to places like this don't bother. No strings attached.

This guy went on and on. Then we went into a room. Finally I was like 'Let's just do this already', but then something was wrong. Halfway through I just wanted it to end. Like it took forever. I wasn't enjoying it. Perhaps I felt guilty in a way, perhaps I was taken back by his friendliness and sincerity. Out of courtesy I followed through till the end. Would have been really rude to walk out without giving him the ending he deserved lol.

After that I just felt kind of mehhhhh... like even now, I don't feel like having sex with anyone. I'm still attracted to hot guys and porn and stuff... but I just don't feel like doing it with another person. I have no problems doing it with myself though, LOL......

Could this be the consequence of playing with the dildo? :O

What the hell is happening to me??

XOXO

No Thanks To Rain

So the idea of getting a dildo to play with in order to resist outer temptations backfired completely... because it made me lust for physical action even more. I sound like a complete whore, but ever since I started working, I want to make the most of weekends, and that includes some S to the E to the X!!

Wanted to check out a popular spot, called Kakiku. I have not been there previously simply because of the distance. It was always more convenient to check in to Studio 89, Mandi-Manda, and if I was up for it, a drive to Bukit Bintang for some shopping then humping at Day Thermos.

But Cheras, which is somehow a popular plu area, always seemed too far, and I'm totally unfamiliar with the roads there. Until today, where I guess my curiosity took over. I did my research as usual, and set off to the nearest LRT station.

Getting there was NOT easy. It was drizzling when I left home at 3. Upon embarking from the Kelana Jaya line, I had to switch trains at the Masjid Jamek transit, then make my way up to Maluri via the Ampang line. All in all, the journey took just over an hour. I was so bored in the train.

Once I got off the train, I was surprised to see it raining rather heavily at Taman Maluri. According to the map, I had to walk about 10 minutes to reach Kakiku. I knew which direction to go, but the rain was getting heavier and heavier.... I was forced to wait it out at the bus stop. It was already 4+. For certain reasons I had to be home by 6.30pm. If you do the math, my original plan was to spend about an hour there and then rush home. But thanks to the rain, I stood at the bus stop until 4.45pm. YES, and there was NO sign that the rain was getting lighter.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention. When I was in the train I saw a hot, fit guy wearing a T-shirt that said Muay Fit. I overheard him asking a man about taking buses at Maluri. I guessed he was going to the same place as I was, and he was just as lost as me haha. He was holding a purple fold-able umbrella. So when I was stuck at the bus stop, I saw him on the opposite side of the road (which is where I was supposed to be), and I saw him walking in the direction of the sauna. At that instance, I realized I should have tumpang payung with him haha... Too bad he was across the road LOL. I watched as he crossed the road braving through the heavy rain, and he had to walk through puddles of water in his slippers and his feet were drenched.

At that moment I realized how desperate men can be. The things we do just to get our dicks squirting.

I waited till 4.45pm, there was no way I could have made it to the sauna and back home in time. So I had no choice but to go home.

YES, so I spent the entire day standing and waiting in the train and the bus stop, and then back on the train and home. LAME right. I wasted half a day for nothing..... Horny and wet now.

I might try again tomorrow. Rain is not going to stop me!!!
 
XOXO
     

Dildo

Haha the title says it all.

In an attempt to NOT go out slutting around and have random birds creep up my dark nest, I bought myself a dildo.

Went to the adult shop, took some guts to walk in under broad daylight. I was relieved that the sales person was a young and hot guy, but he spoke in broken English, and probably straight anyway, hence I wasn't that turned on LOL.

I was the only customer there, I looked around and didn't see dildos, so I just asked him 'Do you have dildos?' hahaha he must have knew instantly that I was gay, but he wasn't shy or awkward at all. His laid back and non-judgmental attitude made me relax instantly. He just took out a clear folder with catalogue in it and showed me the models. Basically there were only 2 choices: one was Japanese, the other American. He recommended that I get the Japanese one because he said (and I quote) 'It's more suitable for Asian size' hahahaha, he joked around a bit. I requested to see it and he showed me (the dildo, not his own dick).

Boy was it a beauty (again, the dildo). Made from silicone and dyed into a transparent pink, it was very realistic looking with the head perfectly shape and veins all over. I thought it was huge, thick and almost 7 inches long (including the base). He was joking that this is considered small already, and went on to show me the American one which was just ridiculously and unrealistically LARGE. Obviously I didn't want to bust my asshole so I chose the Jap one. And gosh it was not cheap. RM299. But the way I see it, if it can keep me entertained and away from casual sex which has a risk of disease, then in the long run it's a good investment. A dildo, if cared for properly can last up to several years (I think).

So, obviously I have already gave my purchase a test run. And let's just say, it's way better than any home object (glue stick, cucumber). The shape and thickness really resembles an actual dick, and the silicone is soft and flexible but still hard, which makes it easy to use. For hygiene reasons I put a condom on it and used lots of lube. Long story short, I reached climax without even touching my rod. Yes, it was that good, it really feels like actual anal sex, but of course minus the passion and warmth of the guy and his weight leaning against you. And after withdrawing the dildo, you get that after sex soreness and loose feeling which lasts for a while :P

So yeah, you don't need a random guy when you have a dildo!! But that doesn't mean I'm not looking for relationships, am still on the hunt for qualified candidates ;)

XOXO

The Many Faces of Someone

It has come to my attention that someone I know hasn't been entirely honest, and in fact to a lot of people.

I think it's pretty common for us to have several sides to our character. I mean, when you're with this group of friends you behave a certain way and hide certain things about yourself, and when you're with another gang you show another side, if you know what I mean...

Even being an anonymous blogger, not many of you know who I really am, or how I look like.. My character as J-boy may or may not be very different from who I am in real life, even though I've stressed many times that everything I blog about has been true. And yeah, generally being gay, many of us seem to have adopted a double identity in a way, whether we do it consciously or not.

But then there are some extreme cases. Some people are just plain nut jobs. Creating completely different identities and selling them to other people. Very much like an actor that's convinced he's actually the character that he's portraying. Double or perhaps even triple identity. Super creepy.

You may think you are being careful, but eventually the truth comes out. I KNOW. And other people are going to find out as well. Not sure what your intentions are, but it makes me sick to realize just how manipulative and twisted your mind is. I don't understand why you have to lie to such an extent. It's disturbing.

I KNOW.

You better watch your ass because you've just woken the cobra.

The cobra is me by the way hahaha :P

It Sucks

Everybody says that you're gonna miss the student life once you begin your career, and I couldn't agree more.

Just 2 days in and I already feel like shit.

My colleagues have been friendly and very sociable. As you know I'm not that talkative, so I still need some time to get used to the dynamic with them. Lunch time can be a little awkward because I don't have much to say to them, partly because there's a slight age gap.

The office is actually beautiful. I have a lovely new desk, comfy chair, strong air conditioning, no trouble with getting free parking, the toilet is clean and well equipped, so I have no qualms about doing my big business there haha... Coz you know sometimes you avoid taking a dump in toilets outside of your home because it's not as comfortable/familiar LOL... Is that TMI?

Now let's talk about the shitty stuff.

I was given a series of tasks or I should say tests/challenges, and it turns out I SUCKED at them. Will not reveal so much about the nature of what I'm doing, but yeah..... I haven't been delivering and my supervisor seems a little disappointed, even though I'm still new, and obviously need some time to adapt and learn and improve.

That's not too bad actually. I know I will get better. Right now the thing that is killing me the most is the change in lifestyle...... The long hours at work, waking up early, getting stuck in after work peak hour traffic.... by the time I reach home I just feel like eating, showering then going straight to bed. There's not much time, or energy, for fun and games anymore.

It feels like I've been robbed of my sleep and vitality, and robbed of having a youthful and happy, free, easy going lifestyle. I expect pressures at work to increase over time, which is gonna suck even more.

Right now I've never been happier about WEEKENDS. Being able to sleep in, and run errands that I no longer have time to do during weekdays. Oh and going to the gym.... normally I'm so tired after work I don't have mood to gym anymore.

Hopefully my body and mind adjusts to this new lifestyle A.S.A.P.
Otherwise I'm going to get burned out eventually :(

Will try to stay strong!
XOXO

Tomorrow is the First Day

Woohoo I'm a big boy now haha!

A big step awaits tomorrow... the 1st of November.

I'm excited, nervous, unsure of what to expect, terrified but also just glad that life is moving on and things are happening for me :)

For some reason, I feel like a cobra.... I mean I feel like saying the word Cobra. Random much.

Cobra.

Cobra.

Cobra.

Imagine a cobra that's excited, nervous, unsure of what to expect, terrified but also glad life is moving on and things are happening for it.... Just picture the look on the cobra's face....

Hahaha.

Yup. That's me. Ready to strike.... I will try to be nice and not bite, and I can be nice when handled correctly.

Just hope I don't do anything stupid on my first day. Or be socially retarded haha.
I will try my best to be humble, pleasant and friendly.

Wish me luck, I will NEED it :P
XOXO 

Alone on a Saturday Night

Sigh, how pathetic...

I know I always say that I'm cool with being on my own and enjoying the peace and quiet with no one else to bother me, but gee today happens to be that rare day when I felt like having some social interaction and couldn't get it...

It so happens that my parents are away for an over night trip, and my mind was immediately thinking about all the naughty things I could do hahaha! The first thing that came to my mind was going to MP, because I've never been.... but after scrolling through my phone and computer I realized I have no gay friends to go with! Like there was no appropriate person to ask. Then I started thinking about random things, like bringing a guy home, since he can spend the night with me and we can cuddle and all in my bed........ Don't worry, there's no guy in my bedroom now LOL! Decided that the risk was too high just in case my parents came home early.

I somehow managed to resist the strong urge to go to the sauna or get a massage, because like I've said I'm looking for something more meaningful now, and sometimes when you're feeling a little down/lonely, going to the sauna and having casual sex only makes you feel crappier about yourself.

So I resorted to the only other thing that could make me happy: Shopping & Food! Went to Pavilion by myself, and gosh walking through the large crowds by yourself also kind of makes you feel crappy... In the end, I didn't find anything worth buying, so I bought some food home, and had dinner in front of the TV in an empty house.

Which makes me think, being gay may call for a lonely future, like years from now when my parents are gone, and my siblings are all married with their own family, I would be returning from work to an empty house, eating dinner by myself, and then going to bed and going to work the next morning, repeating the cycle of loneliness..... Hahaha OMG I should start thinking about getting a cat LOL!!!

XOXO

 

TMILF ~ Part 1

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The Man I'm Looking For

I was chatting with another blogger about dating and asking him to set me up with his friends that are suitable, because to be honest there really isn't much other ways to meet PLU. Like you guys said the gym is meant for eye candy-ing only, and I'm just so bored of the guys on Jack'd, like no one catches my eye, and most are in for fun only. I don't go out to the scene so I won't meet new people, by the way what or where is the scene? At clubs like MP? Nahhh....

Btw, yes I feel like I'm ready to date, or at least trying to get something more than just casual sex. I'm at a good place emotionally, mentally and physically now. 

So back to the topic of getting set up with a friend's friend, he then asked me what I'm looking for....... which is like such a good question. In that instant, I just couldn't answer it, it's like the answer can be so vague yet so specific....... and after more thought, I started thinking about the man I envision to be with....

In the end, there were so many things I could come up with, I joked that it can be written into a book titled 'The Man I'm Looking For', though it's more like a fantasy / ideal man type of thing, but yeah...... some criteria that definitely needs to be fulfilled in my opinion.

Feel like mentioning it all out here, just for the record, but right now I feel too tired to construct proper chains of thoughts and sentences...............


To be continued.... tomorrow or the day after that haha :P

Till then,
XOXO

Arabian Nights!

OK I'm done with all the serious posts for now... it's time to get petty and gush about hot guys again!!

There's this guy that I noticed since I joined this gym, he was there right from the start, but I didn't pay too much attention on him, NOT because he's unattractive, but because he has never looked at me and gave eye contact until today. Forget about Snow for now, he clearly doesn't know I exist.

I'm not quite sure what race or country he's from, but would it be offensive if I say Middle Eastern? Or is it Arabian or Persian? Forgive me for lacking in understanding of the technicalities or nomenclature of people from that part of the world. It's just like some people think it's offensive to say Black people, and perhaps the more appropriate term is African American. So would anyone like to suggest what is the respectful way of addressing our friends up North?

OK.... technicalities aside, let's just focus on this guy! Damn he's hot... the only negative point is that he's not as tall.... recently I've been bitching about height with my Nun sister hahaha and how I don't find guys that are shorter than me be considered manly (in my eyes). OK back to the hottie, so he's not the most vertically gifted, maybe just a tad shorter than me, but he makes up for it with a toned upper body! gosh I know I'm superficial, but we're in eye candy territory :P

And unlike the stereotypical guys from his home, he wasn't hairy at all! Yes, I totally checked him out in the locker room! The most magical thing happened today: TIMING! Incredible how a series of events when timed correctly can just make you notice someone! We both finished our workout at the same time, stripped to towel at the same time, went to shower (separate stalls!) at the same time, I came out like seconds before him, we both got dressed in the same time, and I walked out of the locker room with him tailing right behind me!! The best part? On my way out, there was this large mirror on the wall, so I stopped to fix my hair for a quick second and he was looking at me in the mirror... Not direct eye contact, but eye-mirror-eye contact hahaha!! BAM!!! Pretty sure he's gay based on the colourful and bright underwear that I saw him put on! The combo of (Underwear + gym) is such a give away of sexuality.

Haha ok I know this means nothing, I don't have a crush on him yet, but damn now I just want to see him in his underwear more often!! TIMING hahahaha :P

It doesn't take a genius to figure out my choice of song right?
Arabian -> Aladdin -> Genie -> Lamp -> Christina Aguilera -> RUB ME THE RIGHT WAY honey ;)


P.S. Watch the video of Demi Lovato above! She's just so incredible, I love how she sings with so much emotion, it makes me wonder who she's thinking of when singing this song... If I were straight, she would totally be the celeb that I would have a major crush on! :)

Safe Sex: Know your stuff

So this post is long overdue. I mentioned I was going to write about safe sex practices, intended for our younger or perhaps relatively uninformed or inexperienced readers that may or may not be taking their first step into.....the joy ride hahaha! I say there's no harm in banging it out if you do it the right way, because you are not really a grown man until you have sex and make that physical connection with another person.

Obviously I'm not the most informed, I'm sure there are many (older :P) bloggers that know way more than me. But I will just share some of my personal precautions.

Oh before that, if you want to know the complete info, these links are helpful:
http://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/bhcv2/bhcarticles.nsf/pages/HIV_and_gay_men_safe_sex
http://www.managingdesire.org/GaySexWithoutRegret.html

OK, personally I have 3 golden rules that I always repeat to myself (like a mantra) before going to saunas, massages or any date:
1. No condom = no fuck 
2. A dick that has been inside the ass doesn't go into the mouth (even if a condom was used)
3. Don't let him cum inside my mouth

Hahaha I know I know, you may think these rules take the fun and spontaneity out of sex... because sometimes when you're so into it, you tend to let go of all your inhibitions... But I'm damn firm about it. Prior to sex, I let the guy know that he is not allowed to cum inside my mouth, or my face for that matter. It's always neck down for me LOL, simply because it's safer. You may have small open wounds in your mouth from vigorous brushing, or bleeding gums. If he doesn't comply, then well...... I'm sure he wouldn't risk it considering his most prized possession is in the clutches of my jaws. ;)

Rule no.2 is really a hygiene issue for me. That is why oral sex always precedes anal sex. Call me old fashioned, and sticking to routine, but I just don't fancy sucking on his dick when it has been poking way up my anus. The routine is pretty standard, and all guys that I've been with seem to follow the pattern without me asking... it's something like touching - kissing - clothes off - touching - stroking - sucking - licking - oral - maybe more sucking/licking/touching/groping etc - then once it reaches the anal stage, it usually ends with orgasm. From my experiences, tops usually like to cum outside on you and make a mess, which is actually safer compared to cumming inside the ass, because condoms may not be 100% reliable. Make sure that if he cums on any part of your body, that there are no wounds / broken skin that could lead to exposure.

Rule no. 1 is the MOST IMPORTANT rule of ALL TIME. Seriously, there's absolutely no compromise. I'm proud to say that I've NEVER been fucked bare backed. There was this 1 time I almost fell into the trap of a smooth talking and very insistent hunk, that kept saying how much he liked my body and wanted to fuck me, and promised he wouldn't cum inside me. He was hot, but that only made me want to play safe EVEN MORE, because god knows how many asses that cock has seen. So, in the end he finally gave up and grabbed a condom.
To all bottoms out there, trust me when I say you need to hold your ground, because when you two are in a naked pre-sex situation, a horny Top will eventually give in to your request in the end, because let's face it... he is a horny pervert and will not let go of that opportunity to fuck you right there and then, when you have presented yourself to him like a delicious and sumptuous platter.
And dear readers, if you are a Top, please don't be a jerk and just put on a freaking condom, because you are protecting yourself too! Honestly if you get used to the habit of using condoms right from the start, then you won't find it unpleasurable. I actually think condoms are sexy LOL.

So these are my 3 golden rules. Did I forget to mention anything important? Feel free to mention it here!! Thanks and play safe guys!!

XOXO

My 3 Fashion Must Haves

Haha since I'm still on a fashion high after the recent h&m launch, I would like to share with you the 3 most important things I think are absolute fashion essentials for any men. These items will be based on my personal style, which is more street, and hence I will not cover high end branded stuff or very formal things like suits (even though every man should have one), etc.... This is more of a everyday style type of thing :P

1. SUNGLASSES 
Literally man's best friend. Life saver. Has a more functional purpose than anything else in my wardrobe. Protection from the Sun, UV rays, dust from entering the eyes. When I drive I gotta put my shades on, otherwise it's too hard to see with the glare. Also your best friend when you're out on a sunny day. When you're feeling lazy and don't look as good as you normally do, there's nothing better than to hide behind a pair of sunglasses when you need to get out of the house to run errands. Some people like to dress up for flights, but I do the exact opposite, especially on long flights. I tend to board the plane bare faced and without any wax on my hair with the intention to sleep.... coz if you leave makeup on for too long your skin will breakout. Therefore, when you look super un-glamarous with oily skin and ugly hair once you reach the airport, putting the shades on while working your way through the crowd will spare you any embarrassment! :)
Sunglasses are not necessarily expensive, you just need to look around. I like BIG bug-eyed lenses (think Powerpuff girls lol). Find one with the lens shape that suits your face, and make sure it's not too heavy because it will be uncomfortable when it's pressing against the nose bridge.

2. JEANS!
Love it or hate it, denim is simply too iconic to ignore. Everyone should invest in at least 1 pair of great (perhaps pricey) jeans. It may take some time to find, because no two pairs are exactly the same in terms of fit, pattern and cutting, even if they are from the same brand and line. Therefore you really need to spend time trying many pairs on. As a general rule, I would say go for straight cut jeans, because they are suitable for most people, not to mention most comfortable. Skinny jeans or those super skin tight ones are only meant for people with skinny thighs and calves (like me!), so it should be avoided by our bulkier friends, unless you want to look like a bloated sausage casing. Colour wise, I think it's really dependent on your taste.. personally I like the classic dark blue that is slightly bleached looking (not even tone), and shades of black/grey denim is also very sexy. Oh and I DON'T think jeans with intentional holes are 'in' anymore, it's cheap and cheesy. Just my opinion.
Speaking of denim, I must point out that denim should only be worn on the lower body, and not upper. Denim jackets are ridiculously tacky, so if you still have yours from the 90s (or even longer ago), then perhaps it's time to reconsider. I wouldn't throw or give it away for sentimental reasons, but probably wouldn't wear it out either.

3. LEATHER SHOES
Okay I know leather shoes are more towards formal / work wear, but I just can't resist some nice leather! Every man needs some leather! :P Leather shoes are not the cheapest, and they require consistent care and maintenance such as polishing and being careful not to scratch it when worn in order to have a long life. Whether you're going for a formal event, or just want to sharpen up your smart casual look, a good pair of leather (I like black) goes a long way. I sometimes even wear it with jeans lol. Personally I'm not very good at picking formal shoes, still lack experience in this division... when I go into a store and see a sea of leather, after a while they all just look kind of the same to me. I guess the obvious things are like the shape of the tip, whether you prefer a rounder, squarish, or sharp pointy look. I personally don't like the pointy looking ones. Ultimately, I think the 2 most important criteria for formal shoe hunting is BUDGET and COMFORT.   


Hehe I would like to know what you think of my list. I'm no fashion expert, but I'm very much fashion conscious. Also, PLEASE SHARE with us the 3 most important things in your wardrobe! This should be fun!! :)

XOXO

Cold as Snow

Haha so instead of calling familiar fair skin guy from the gym as Snow White, let's just stick with Snow because it's less emasculating.

I went to the gym on Wednesday hoping to see him again. I was there by 7 but he was no where to be seen. Feeling a little disappointed I proceeded to the treadmill. When I was done, I headed back to the locker room to get my bottle, and right at the entrance as I was walking in, he came out!

He was smiling for some reason, not at me, because he was already smiling as he was walking out, it just melted my heart into a puddle. Wearing a tight purple shirt that showed off his bulging muscles, it made me want to sigh in delight like a fan girl LOL. He's easily one of the hottest guys at the gym that night.

Unfortunately it was time for class so I went into the studio, and he was out doing weights. Every now and then I would glance out the studio's glass wall to see what he was doing.... but he wasn't looking in..... When class was done, I couldn't find him outside so I went into the locker room. He had already showered and was packing to leave. Bummer...... But in that second when I walked past him, he looked at me again. Eye contact, brief but sweet. (Vincent, this is another sign of gayness you can add to the list: A guy that looks at all the other guys that goes in and out of the locker room. :P)

So, conclusion is.... I'm quite sure he's gay, but he doesn't seem interested in me at all. Oh well........ he's too hot and muscular and cute and fair skinned for me anyway......

Time to sulk in a corner for a while, then move on hahaha. Hope to see him at the gym again though :P

XOXO   

H&M!!!!!!!!!

Like a magical signal had been emitted from the heart of Bukit Bintang, all (ok fine, most) gays and fashionistas flocked towards this signal in synchrony... otherwise known as the grand opening of H&M in Malaysia!! And like a droid, I found myself succumbing to materialistic temptation and waiting in line outside the store like all the other eager shoppers to be among the first day's batch of Malaysians and tourists to browse through the store! I wonder if anyone of you spotted me? I was in huge shades and a blue and black thin stripped T-shirt looking oh so gay LOL.

It's not really about buying and spending excessively because I have to watch my wallet, but it was more about the excitement of seeing the collection and imagery. The store was beautiful and bright, the clothes were plentiful. And I gotta say, H&M Malaysia is actually better than H&M Singapore in terms of number of choices (Men's department lah, not sure about Ladies coz I didn't go there), I felt like there was more stuff here. But not everything is suited to my taste, and to be honest the price of some items were actually still not cheap, even though H&M is supposed to be relatively more affordable than other high end stuff. But that didn't stop me from buying a casual T-shirt and a slightly more formal buttoned long sleeve shirt! :D

The best part of being at H&M? The crowd haha!! If you just look around the men's floor, it is so obvious that the number of gays outnumber the straights. OK maybe some are metrosexuals, but they still make excellent eye candy. And so many guys were eyeing me, including a muscular hunk that was just a few people ahead of me in the line to the fitting room, he kept turning back to look at me *blush*! I had just as much fun checking out the guys as I did checking out the clothes.

I know some of you will think, sigh it's just all hype and stuff, H&M is so overrated etc, but I bet that you too will be visiting the store some time this year! Otherwise you're just an outdated turtle ;) 

XOXO

New Gym, but Same Hottie!!

Woooooohhh some spice has just been brought back into my life!! :)

As I've mentioned before, I've changed to a different gym last month. Contemplated for quite a while before I made the move, but in the end I think I made the right choice. The staff here is much friendlier, the equipment range is wider (though still not really enough in quantity because the number of members is shooting up, especially after work hours), better security with the wrist band magnetic locker system, free hot beverages and computers to surf the net while letting the muscles rest a bit before you torture them again haha! Oh yeah and the price is cheaper! :)

The cons would probably be not as many classes as the previous gym, and no free towel service. But the management promised to bring in more classes as they expand and find out what the members want. What I like about this company is that they are very customer oriented, at least so far they are because they are new in the market and keen to impress :P

NOW LET'S TALK ABOUT THE CROWD, because that's probably all you readers care about right!!!
And by crowd, I mean the GUYS (Duhhh haha). Initially I didn't see many when the gym first opened, but gradually more and more yummies appeared. I noticed it's quite a young crowd, like high school boys coming in groups, quite annoying at times because they come in large gangs and hog the equipment and talk really loudly like they own the place, but pretty hot nevertheless. I think these are like the jocks of their schools.... for them to start gymming that early and being so conscious about muscles and appearance is pretty cool actually. I have a feeling some are Plu, though can't really tell because they are so young (I sound old...). And my radar is unreliable.

Also pretty international compared to the previous gym. Quite a few Middle Eastern guys, hairy at all the right places hahaha... And today I saw a couple of Caucasians too. So far majority of the crowd look pretty fit. Quite a number of aunties too, but they mostly do milder cardio stuff so I won't need to compete with them for the machines and equipment :P

Today I saw this super cute hot guy with fair skin like Snow White that was from my previous gym!!! According to Danny quite a few members have shifted to this gym, so I guess I shouldn't be surprised haha! He definitely noticed me, and probably remembers me because I used to check him out and give long stares at the old gym LOL. He looks buffer now. And I saw him shirtless draped in a towel!! Definitely getting a Plu vibe, because he was chatting with 2 younger friends in the locker room about partying, and those friends DEFINITELY SCREAM GAY by the way they dress and look! But I'm soooo out of my game, I don't really know what to do to get his attention, so I decided to just forget about it LOL. It's easier that way *yawns like old, retired player on a lazy chair*

But today he definitely noticed me, probably coz I looked familiar. Let's see if I run into him again.

I kind of wanna find out his name so that I can stalk his fb profile. I happen to be damn good at hunting people down on the Internet. Ohhh NO.... I'm getting all crazy again!! Don't worry, I'm much more mature now *cough cough*

XOXO

What Happens In Vegas,......

Hey guys I'm home!!!

I spent so much time away that when I reached home it felt weird, like even parts of my room didn't seem familiar LOL, as if I've forgotten where I was and what my life used to be. Haha thank goodness that weirdness has passed and I've settled back to my Malaysian identity again. I MISSED the FOOD here so so much!!

It has been awesome breaking away from stagnant routines and living differently, even if it were only for a short while. Will not disclose exactly where I went to (note: Not Vegas) because I'm still paranoid that some of you will figure out who I really am haha.... but I think some of you will know la, or chat me up on fb if you want ;)

I know I said I was gonna stay away from saunas and sex for a while, but I couldn't resist checking out the gay scene when in a foreign country.... I mean which gay guy wouldn't want to check out the local meat men right?

So I did some research and found 2 saunas in my area, so I paid a visit to both haha. The first place I went to provided an INTERESTING experience, and by interesting, I mean totally horrifying. The facilities were decent, with jacuzzi, glory holes and S&M room and the place was much more spacious than Malaysian saunas, but I went at a wrong time. Saunas there typically open from 11am till late night, and I saw on their website that lunch time had a good crowd, so that was exactly when I visited the place. Bad decision!! :O :O :O
Turns out the lunch crowd was 98% senior citizens, and I made up the remaining 2% hahahaha.. And by SENIOR, I mean old enough to be my grandfather. Picture old, chubby white haired men with saggy skin and wrinkles over their face. To make things worse, it was the NUDE DAY, so towels had to be over the shoulders.... I was so put off I wasn't even close to getting hard. But since I had already paid to enter, I actually stayed there for like 2 hours haha, just watching porn in the video lounge and hoping someone younger would show up (didn't happen LOL). Several of these gentlemen actually came up to me and asked if they could suck me off, and in my head I was like WHOA*#&@*$^*@#@*&$, but because they were soooo senior I had to politely turn off their offer. @_@

After being severely traumatized, I turned to Jack'd for guys that were more of my taste. Not that many guys on Jack'd, and Asians are a minority here.... so we are not exactly fancied in general. Only locals with an acquired taste would seek Asians. And I met up with one such 28 year old that was very much in my liking! Went to his apartment in the heart of the city and did the deed. My very first taste of Caucasian meat. And I gotta say, after seeing several hard dicks in saunas throughout my trip here, I can say Caucasians are bigger than Asians, or Malaysians from my experience. I know that's generalization, but based on what I saw, it's true!!

After this guy, there wasn't really any other decent guy that messaged me on Jack'd. Actually most of the messages I got were from other Asians staying there. And there was this 1 guy, a China native studying there that really caught my eye. He had the typical charming, leng zhai look, definitely not lala type... he looked mature and sexy, but still had this youthfulness about him. And he was kind of a hipster. Not the typical China man, he conversed in decent English and had traveled to US and Europe. Obviously from a wealthy family. And I later found out he's the type that likes to wear all those high end fashion branded stuff, which put me off a little because I find that generally guys that dress so preppy and over the top are superficial and appear way too gay (or bottomish).
But the conversations we had were so nice that I was willing to look past his wardrobe. FYI we didn't meet for sex. Every now and then you find someone on Jack'd that's worth more than sex. Or so I thought. I became pretty emotionally invested in him, but unfortunately after a few days of whatsapping he started to become cold, ie the replies were often delayed and short, so I already got the hint that he was no longer interested in me. Mehhhh. This is why I hate love and relationships, and getting all mushy and clingy and hopeful......

But deep down I should have known that no good would come out of it. I mean, I was only in that country for a holiday, pretty soon I would return to Malaysia, then what? There's no way a relationship could start from such a short exposure period. Maybe it was being lonely in a foreign country that made me uncharacteristically hopeful and open to the idea of love. Well, I'm Wide Awake now hahaha.

Oh yeah, so there was this 2nd sauna that I checked out on a Sunday, which is the busiest day of the week. And thank god, finally the crowd was much more young and sexy, I was ogling at all the hot bods!! This place also had a jacuzzi and a SWIMMING POOL! Obviously I didn't get into any of the pools in fear of the cleanliness and picking up some infection. Unfortunately Asians are also the minorities at saunas, so I wasn't really catching a lot of bait. It took me a while to observe and adjust to the etiquette there, and eventually I landed a decent guy. Apparently many guys that go to saunas in this country are not fully gay, in fact these venues are considered a place where men have sex with like minded men, rather than being labelled as a gay sauna. So this guy that I was with, I got the vibe that he wasn't comfortable being gay, because he said he was really horny and wanted me to suck him off, which he then cummed quickly, thanked me and left before I even started on myself. He didn't wanted to suck or even touch my junk haha. Pretty lackluster that I had to finish by myself with his load of cum over my chest. But yeah, Caucasian sausages definitely provide a mouthful haha!

I'm glad I had a slice of the local PLU culture while being there. Before coming home, I even bought a GAY magazine with lots of pictures as a souvenir. Over there, these adult magazines are displayed publicly and sold in all major book and news stores, which I think is so open and cool.

So that wraps up my holiday report, hope you enjoyed it ;)

XOXO

Far Far Away

Hey bloggies!

Sorry for not updating lately. Currently at a place really far away from home, but geographically I'm actually closer to some of you *cough cough* Those who know will know what I mean ;P

Long story short, I'm on holiday and won't be back till the second week of September.

Just wanted to write something so that this page won't be dusty, and it's time for me to catch up on your blogs!! *reads away*

Till then,
XOXO

Brokeback!

Haha I didn't actually break my back, but it sure hurts like crazy... my lower back has been stiff and sore since yesterday.

Before you jump to conclusions..... NO, it wasn't caused by an acrobatic three-way (though that sure would make hell of a story)... The real reason is actually lame.

I was at the gym on Tuesday, participating in a free training session. Oh yeah fyi I changed gyms recently, no longer going to the old place (Sorry Danny for never making it to your class!). So this trainer was teaching us how to do some weight exercises, involving the use of barbells and this heavy ball thingy with a handle on it. I actually had no idea what it's called... so I Googled image 'weight ball with handle at the gym' hahaha and ta-duh it appeared!! So it's actually called a Kettlebell (pic below)!! Haha still learning my gym lingo :P


The exercise was awkward. I picked the lightest one because my arms aren't that strong.. I think it was only 8 or 10kg, and yet I had the greatest difficulty trying to swing it. We were told to hold onto the handle with both hands, and then swing the ball all the way out front and then all the way back, going under the crotch, then between the legs and then thrusting back front. The trainer said we were supposed to use our hips and thigh strength to balance the weight, but obviously I was doing it wrong because I was only feeling the pull on my back. At that time it didn't seem to hurt so I just went with it.

The next morning, I was greeted with this horrible pain when I got up. Today it got a little better but still stiff at certain spots. Have been applying Ammeltz Yoko Yoko and it helps. Right now I've definitely learned the lesson that exercise can be harmful if not done correctly! Will stay away from the kettlebells for a while now....

On another note, I've recently turned a year older! Birthdays aren't really a big deal for me, don't celebrate much apart from the standard song and blowing of candles. I enjoy cake though haha :P

Feeling a little blahh lately... with what I want to do with my life in terms of career and personal development. Just at a point of facing some crossroads.... things are a little stagnant, not sure if it's my reluctance to move or just that the right opportunities haven't come my way yet. Either way I expect to do something... and hopefully soon.

XOXO

Massage Again + Important Message

Yet another skanky tale to spill about.

I blogged about my first massage last month, that was considered proper even though the venue was a sauna. I decided to check out a plu establishment, I guess you can call it a massage center, since they didn't have sauna/steam rooms.

Called to make a booking, I got to choose a masseur from pics uploaded. My first choice wasn't available, so I ended up with a young looking charming Sabah native. This place provides B2B massage (for those that don't know.. it's body to body).... so you can say it's more sexual in nature than a regular massage.

The place was not as posh as I expected. Simple looking, some deco, nice relaxing music playing in the background. The toilet/bathroom was cheap, there was no proper shower, you have to use a mug to scoop the water from a large bucket. Also the massage bed/mattress was so thin that you can feel the hard floor.

The massage itself was good. The masseur looked twinky in the pic, but he was actually quite well built, had good strength for kneading and pressing. The massage was performed in semi dark conditions, he was naked right away. As expected, the massage starts off proper, with him pressing and working on my legs, shoulders, back. Then the 'body to body' part started... he applied lots of lotion on his chest, and started rubbing his body against my back haha going up down left right. Then it was chest to chest, face to face... and further down you have ahem to ahem ;)

The last time I had a massage I was shy to touch the masseur... so this time I decided to go all out and wild, my hands were running against him all over LOL. At times, it was like I was giving him a massage instead hahaha. He was into it, his member was hardening and he started responding to my actions.... I think we strayed away from the actual course of the massage segment and started doing other stuff haha. This guy had super hairy thighs just like Ken from Singapore. This concludes that I'm into hairy men haha! Just so nice to touch! :P

And it was interesting because prior to leaving home, I felt the impulse to bring along condoms and lube.... and sure enough it came in handy. I think the masseurs are not allowed to officially have anal sex with the patrons, because condoms were not provided there, and he actually told me he was scared to throw the used condom in the dustbin outside, and ended up wrapping it in lots of tissue to hide it from the guy at the front desk which I suppose is the owner or supervisor.

Having our bodies rub against each other with oily lotion is such a turn on!! I didn't actually plan on doing the full deed with him... but somehow I got caught up in the moment and initiated it and later at home I realized my ass was bleeding. No worries it's only very mild and dried up almost instantly.

After this whole thing I felt kind of dirty. Don't know why... it's not that different from going to the sauna.. maybe it's because I tried to seduce the masseur and the way I molested him... Or perhaps it has to do with the fact that I was paying for the service... so I'm somehow feeling guilt for equating money with sex... because at the sauna it's between 2 guys that wanna do it... here it's like the masseur is kind of obliged to do it with me, though he looked like he enjoyed my company haha.
Or maybe it was because of all the oil, I actually showered twice (once there, and another time when I got home) to get rid of all the oiliness. Or is it the fact that I bled and am somehow worrying about STDs and stuff even though we played safe from the start and he didn't cum inside me.

Right now I totally see why everyone sees me as a dirty whore/slut, and in some ways I'm starting to realize that perhaps this is not the lifestyle that I want and I should tone it down from now. It's not so much that I care what other people think of me, but for me the reasons are internal and how I feel about it and what I think is right for me. I think I have already reached the pinnacles of having casual sex haha. Already done the saunas and massages. Tried most of the stuff there is to try, except drugs and prostitution LOL.

Not saying that I'm going to be Mother Teresa from now, because people can't change right away... but yeah, definitely I won't be visiting places like these so soon. I hope. 

And I also realize I have an audience of some younger PLU or perhaps those that are new to the circle or just curious about trying all kinds of sexual activities. Therefore I feel a strong need to emphasize that despite I've been out and about a lot in the past year, I have ALWAYS played safe and taken the necessary precautions every single time, and also understand that the risks are ever present even when you use safety supplies. If you do wanna try and experiment, PLEASE always insist on using CONDOMS. You won't know about the guy's history, who he has been with, chances are he won't know either if he had picked up anything. I think I will write up a post on my full list of precautions in the near future.

Till then,
XOXO

Interesting: Poppers & Edging

Remember I talked about being offered poppers by a guy in Absolute?
Well, just days after I returned home I got a message on Grindr (yes, I still log in there occasionally just for fun). Jack'd is the new Grindr anyway haha, but yeah I thought this was interesting...

I should have asked how much he was selling it for just for fun... Didn't know there are so many brands, have you guys ever heard of or tried any of these? Is it safe to consume, or are there any side effects or long term consequences on health?
What is it supposed to do... like does it make you hard or just high? So many questions :P

Being an adventurous person, I would like to try it at least once just to know what it feels like.... but more research on its safety is definitely required before I do so.


Onto something else I read about recently... actually it was first triggered by LeoNut that shared a very interesting video with me.... haha go watch this and BE AMAZED :P (warning: it's porn)
http://thepenilepoet.blogspot.com.au/2012/03/viva-la-spunktastic.html?zx=3557530f0a6e76d

Freaking amazing right?!?! Needless to say I tried to accomplish this feat myself by saving up my reserves for well over a week, but the end result was no where near that dude. I think it should be every guy's dream to shoot a more explosive load and make a big mess right? :P

The question is.... how do you increase the amount of output?

I read some articles, and one of the techniques to achieve it is by EDGING.
http://dickblogs.com/advice/get-a-bigger-cum-load-edging/

And here are some other tips..
http://dickblogs.com/uncategorized/advice-5-steps-to-a-bigger-jizz-load/


So I guess that's the assignment for this week, or maybe the next couple of weeks hahaha.
Are you game? ;)

XOXO

Cover: Wide Awake

So I recorded this soon after I returned from Singapore.

This song has a strong significance to me, I grew onto it the moment I first heard it.

It's about realization and moving on in your life. The past has a way of clinging on to us, and dragging us down, you may not even know it consciously because you are so consumed by it, but there will come a day when you see it all with a clarity that just enlightens you and sets you free. And that's a personal journey that only you can undertake, because no one else has that power over you.

I dedicate this to those that are either in the wilderness at this point in life, or to those that are already beginning to see a new light and trying to make that next step forward.



For better tomorrows :) 
XOXO

SG: Absolute ~ Final Chapter!!

The epic conclusion to the Dark Knight I mean Singapore sauna TRILOGY! Haha btw Dark Knight Rises was awesome, I so wanna be like Selina Kyle a.k.a. catwoman LOL.

Alright.............
So I made a beeline into the foam and crowd. The foam was generated by this machine placed in the center of the open space, and it periodically releases new foam, so that there's always enough supply to cover everyone! It was building up and getting everywhere... like a monster sludge spilling all over haha.

The foam was interesting. Soap based, very white and quite thick, not as free flowing as I thought it would be. It's not like bubbles, it really was FOAM. I tried blowing the foam off my hand, and it didn't really move LOL, so you have some idea of how viscous it was. The sensation on the body was nice and smooth, not irritating unless you're sensitive to soap I guess.

The atmosphere was like a disco dancefloor with slow song on, coz everyone had to be quiet, and it was slightly dark except for the natural moon light, and everyone was sort of like SLOW DANCING if you know what I mean, like you see couples or groups of people just hugging, swaying and feeling each other. Since the foam was above waist height, wondering hands were going around, you get touched but you don't see the hand behind it haha.

Almost once I got into the foam, I was approached by THE MOST AMAZING guy (period) I've ever met in a sauna. He was cute, slightly shorter than me but fit like S'pore guys, to be honest not the usual type I go for because I prefer macho and hunky more than cute. Cute guys look young, I thought he was 23-24, but he was actually 28. But he had this charisma, and the way he picked me up was so smooth... like almost instantly I felt his charm, and decided that I was his for the night. He stood behind me with arms around me like a couple cuddling. We fondled and flirted in the foam, it felt SO AMAZING... coz the foam smooths things out, so his tool was gliding against me at all the right places!!! Seriously, ultra sensitizing! :P

I think everyone in the foam knew I was a first timer, because I looked so genuinely excited to be in it, I was playing around with the foam like a kid, and I made some comments here and there, and that guy (oh his name is Ken) kept asking me to 'Shhhhh' while smiling cheekily coz apparently I was loud since it was so quiet up there LOL. And every now and then I would freak out when the foam level starts rising because I was wearing contact lenses and didn't want to get it in my eyes hahaha.

We found a corner and chatted about so many things while fondling, I got to know him a little better. And this guy was SUPER HAIRY at selective places, namely the thighs and groin area below the belly button. I had so much fun rubbing his thigh because the bushy hair combined with the foam was SO NICE hahahaha. His tool was so hard ;)

We must have been in the foam for like almost an hour. The atmosphere was romantic, beautiful starry sky, the calmness of the night, and a beautiful view of Chinatown. It was like meant to be, for me to be in Singapore that night, at that moment and meet this guy. I connected with Ken not just on a sexual level, but emotionally and intellectually as well. You don't get this often at places like this. When the crowd started to diminish, we decided to head down as well. Before going downstairs, the staff had to shower us in the rooftop bathroom so that the foam won't be brought down to floors below.

We began searching for a private room. It was HARD because many did not have functioning lights, and you can't do things properly in pitch dark conditions. While waiting for a room, we hung around at the mini gym. He sat on one of the exercise machine's bench and asked me to sit in front of him. Another public cuddling moment for all to see LOL.

Finally got a room. And you can guess what happened next. We went all the way, and I had not released myself for an entire week, so it was pretty explosive. We proceeded to shower together, the sauna even provided mouthwash which I thought was brilliant!! We chatted even in the shower, and as we got dried up parted ways to get dressed since our lockers were at different spots. I took my time, thinking he would come look for me if he was already done... I checked my phone it was almost 10.30pm. I searched around for him but he was no where in sight! While showering he said he had to catch the MRT home, and the last train was like 11 or 11.30.... so maybe he was rushing..... but then why didn't he at least say goodbye first? :(

We had such a good time, I thought he would at least wanna keep in contact. Guess maybe he wasn't that into me? And I know phone numbers are never meant to be exchanged in saunas... some guys go there, do stuff and leave it all behind. I'm usually like that too. But I've not met a guy this incredible in the longest time, so can you imagine how disappointed and emo I was... coz I don't go to Singapore often, and the chances of running into him again is like bordering on zero. :(

And it honestly wasn't about sex, coz frankly it was a little too painful and not as skillful for my liking. It was the emotional connection. I'm not saying I'm already in love with him, but I really enjoyed his company. We probably wouldn't be suited for each other in an actual relationship, but in a way meeting him has sort of opened my mind, and heart, that there are still great guys out there worth spending time with. Guys that I would actually wanna date and try to connect with. In some ways, I'm ready to date again.

From now on, I shall implement what I call the Ken Bench(mark). This will be my internal guy assessment system. Whenever I meet a new guy or if a guy shows interest in me, I shall evaluate whether I would rather date this guy or I would rather date Ken, or at least the memory of what I have of Ken. Haha don't worry Ken is not perfect, there were definitely minor flaws to his character that I picked up on. So If a guy stands equal or greater than his level, then I will give it a go.

Ken Bench will officially be in effect...................... NOW!

XOXO

Singapore: Absolute ~ Part 2

Alright sweeties, back to where we were.... *transports self back to that night*

OK, so it was still early I guess, no clocks around so I lost track of time. After getting familiar with the place, it was time to cruise. I wanted to dive right into the foam party, but no one was in yet... a few naked guys cheekily standing by the bar waiting to go in... everyone was like still shy shy, and downstairs everyone still had their underwear / towel on!

I spent some time at one hot spot, which was the stairs leading to the 2nd floor, because from there you have a clear view of the locker area, so you can see who just came in and watch them stripping off hahaha! As usual, some guys are walkers, they keep on moving around; while the others are the posers, they just find a spot and hang around until something catches their eye. I did a bit of both. During one of the earlier rounds in the dark maze, I was groped by an older guy, it was really crowded so I couldn't exactly escape, then 2 other guys joined in, and I was basically molested by three pairs of hands before I squeezed my way out back to the light haha. So that was the warm up.

At some point there was a loud announcement (Think: speakerphone in school classroom) asking everyone to take their towels off, as it was not allowed anymore. So I got to the locker, took off my underwear & towel. It was nice to see naked guys everywhere haha! Don't think you get such open behaviour in brightly lit rooms in Malaysian saunas.

Once I got naked, I thought of going to the foam, but on my way up, made a last minute decision to make a lap around the 3rd floor first. This was when I was approached by a guy, tall and quite buffed, he sort of hugged me, I told him I wasn't interested... but he was so persistent, and followed me around. As I said, it was hard to tell between the wall and walkway, so I got really cornered, and before I knew it, I ended up walking into a private room and he came in and I was like LOL hahahaha can't believe I just set myself up!! He said he would be quick, so I thought what the hell, he was within my standards anyway.

Won't go into details, but I really like how the private cabins are fully equipped with plentiful condoms, lube and tissue. He was older but nice and lean, I later found out he was 35, an engineer. And even in the dark I could see how chocolate brown his skin was for a Chinese. Like really BROWN. So I asked him and apparently guys there like tanning. I asked him where, and he said at the swimming pool (like duh hahaha). Halfway through, he asked me something... like if I use sjdhfjsdn (can't hear because the music was loud), then he took out some chemical stuff.... I instantly said 'NO, I don't use substances or drugs, sorry.'
He explained that it was a Popper or Dropper (couldn't really hear).. apparently you sniff it and it makes you high, but the effect lasts only a very short duration. I said NO I don't want to try it, and then he was mumbling something, and before I knew it he opened it and was sniffing it up. I could smell it from a distance, kind of like alcohol. We then proceeded, not sure if he was high because I was just laying there thinking I should make my way up to the foam.

And the most hilarious part was even though he was HIGH, he never got hard. I kind of had a feeling that he had already just released himself, so I questioned him... and he said yeah he was planning to leave already, but then he saw me and I was really his type, so..... And he is more of the Chinese speaking type, he even called me 'Bao Bei' (baby in Chinese) which made me shiver a little hahaha.

So since he already released, and it was too early for me to do so, we just chatted for a while, I was asking him about life in Singapore. He was the first Singaporean PLU that I mingled with, so I guess that was kind of special.

We then parted ways, I made my way up to the roof. WOW, by then so many guys were in the foam!! I was like 'Finally, this looks more like a party!'. Everyone had to be quiet because we are not that far up from the busy Chinatown streets below. I could clearly see the people eating at the restaurants below, so those people down there can definitely spot us if we are too loud. But it was dark of course, and they pulled down like this semi-transparent dark blinds, so in a way it was so damn awesome because a bunch of naked guys were in foam in open air just a few stories above one of the busiest streets in Singapore!!

Details on the foam next post ;)

XOXO

Singapore: Absolute ~ Part 1

This particular experience was so long, I've decided to split it into parts for better coverage. And so that I will remember this experience in years to come.
It's actually bittersweet to write this because of something that happened at the end that made me kind of emo... but we'll get to that.

So Absolute is one of the premier saunas in merlion land. Prior to heading down I did some research, and found on a forum some PLU stated that it had become less popular due to poor maintenance, and the famous HOT crowd had migrated to other places like Keybox or Cruise. But after reading some other comments and experience of some other bloggers, I've decided to see for myself what is (or was) the glory of Abs.

The date I chose to travel was no coincidence. I made plans for that weekend because of the special monthly event there - The Foam Party. I've never been to one before, so it was really tempting.

On Sunday evening (7+pm), I headed to the busy street in Chinatown, there were many tourists and vendors alike, I quietly sneaked up the stairs to find myself at the entrance and reception. I was NERVOUS. After answering some questions and registering, I was given 2 towels and a locker key.

It was supposed to be fully nude after 7.30pm, since it was still early everyone was in their underwear so I followed. Again, a first timer has to explore the place and figure out the layout, so my first few laps around were slightly clumsy and funny hahaha. At some darker places I actually walked into the wall, because there were mirrors here and there, so it's hard to tell between a wall and an actual walkway hahahaha!

I finally figured my way around. 1st floor was lockers, shower and steam room, though the steam room had not been functioning for some time according to the guys there. 2nd and 3rd floor had the usual dark alleys, maze, private cabins. The cabins were all spread out on the floors unlike local saunas where they are all centered together. Going further up the 3rd floor led to a beautiful rooftop bar and open area, the venue of the foam party. The foam was already bubbling, but no one was in yet. More on foam party later.

So I headed back down and basically just cruised around, checking out 'Singapore' haha. I could immediately see the difference between SG and KL crowd. Definitely higher quality overall in terms of body and looks, but I was told later by a guy that this night was considered average only in terms of hotties. So I could only imagine what a full HOT night was like haha. I was expecting ALL guys to be ridiculously fit and good looking, but turns out they weren't that intimidating. Sure those in their 20s and 30s had nice chest and arms, but not many had like toned abs. I mean, I could fit in there OK. Not the hottest, but not the worst too LOL.

I know this sounds shallow, but I was incredibly relieved that I still had market value in Singapore. I believe I fall into the cute, innocent, "come fuck me" category. Or maybe I just gave out that skanky vibe. I put in a lot of effort prior to going there to make myself look better, like extra time on the treadmill, styling my hair, wearing contact lenses, some foundation to cover up some flaws haha. Singapore guys are not too much better than KL guys. Just marginally. So jangan risau sahabat-sahabat tanah airku. At least from what I observed that night.

More coming up tomorrow ;)

XOXO

Singapore Shopping!

I'm an excellent teaser (not just in bed), so I'm not gonna talk about the juicy bits until later.

Every gay guy should like to, or at least feel a need to shop! Otherwise you're not really gay. I think it's important to have a good sense of personal style and know what looks good on you and what you need to add to your wardrobe. For instance, the type of denim cut that fits your body best, or the colour that suits you or which colour you don't have yet, or how can you match this shirt with which pants, etc. I actually organize my wardrobe according to shirt type and then colour... so immediately I can tell that I have mostly grey/black, green and red.

Having said that, I went to Singapore after I reviewed my closet and I even did a web search of the places I plan to shop at to browse through their online catalog to spot for specific items. Yes, I'm that obsessive compulsive. Obviously everything is expensive in Singapore once you convert the prices back to Ringgit, so I only focused on things that weren't available in Malaysia:

H&M

The beautiful white exterior of the store was striking on Orchard Road. The store consisted of 3 floors, but only half of the 3rd floor was the men's department. To be honest, I was slightly disappointed because online the stuff looked so chic, but when you see the items in your hand, you can kind of tell that the quality of the finishing and sewing isn't that great. I mean, I have seen better stuff at about the same price in Malaysia. And I had some issues with the sizing of the pants hahaha. I tried on a pair of shorts at size 31 Europe, it was ridiculously loose, then I tried 29 and it was still loose. In the end, I bought a pair of cargo shorts at the smallest available size (28 Europe), but even that I still need to belt it to prevent it slipping off my waist when I jump. LOL trust me I'm not that skinny, it's just that the cutting is meant for Caucasians I think. Also bought a simple T shirt :)

A&F

After H&M I walked up the street to the infamous Abercrombie & Fitch store, the first in Southeast Asia. I'm sure you have seen pics of your friends sharing on fb of those shirtless, hunky models in red sweat pants. Well, there was only 1 model greeter on that day, and he was fully clothed haha.. plus he didn't look friendly. Kind of like sending the message that he didn't want to take pics with anyone LOL. The store itself was unlike any other, it was really dark with loud clubbing music, actually like the dark rooms and mazes of saunas hahaha! And the entire place just smelled soooo strongly of the A&F fragrance which was almost suffocating. And there were mirrors everywhere! A vain person would enjoy this place LOL. Everything for sale was horribly overpriced. I was just glad I bought some stuff at H&M, otherwise I would be leaving Orchard Road empty handed :P

Uniqlo

Haha I know we have this here in Malaysia too, but there was a sale and I happened to find something I liked so I made a small purchase :P

Sausage/Meat Market Singapore Guys

OK haha I don't mean to be objectifying men, but damn I saw so many hotties on the street and MRT stations. It's not just the distinctively more defined physical built, but even face wise some Singaporeans have a characteristic macho look... not exactly very handsome, but I don't know.. maybe it's the jaw line or eyes.. makes them tough looking or 'yeng'.. I definitely don't see too many of this kind of guys in KL. But I'm not sure how much of the population is gay, coz quite a number of gay looking hotties had girlfriends haha.  


Alight, that concludes the shopping and browsing section. Stay tuned for the rest :P

XOXO

 

Back from the South!

Hey bloggies!

I just got home from a short 3 day weekend getaway to Singapore, and I had such a great time :)

First time traveling to another country solo, had to plan everything from transport to accommodation to the things to see and do entirely on my own.

After having some family drama recently I just needed to get away from everyone and everything here... It was refreshing to go on holiday alone, I had complete control and flexibility and could do things my way. Sure it was maybe a little lonely at times, but overall the whole experience was more therapeutic and fun!

Needless to say, I did some PLU related stuff and I can't wait to blog about it and share with you all! Singaporean guys are just hot hot hot!!! :)

But it will happen in the days to come. Right now I need to get some good rest.

P.S. I miss reading everyone's blogs! Time to catch up :P


XOXO

Body Conscious

Recently I've been feeling fat.

Again, this sounds stupid and you're probably rolling your eyes now.

Something is wrong with me. Been having really good appetite and my stomach growls for food too regularly :(

My current BMI is 19.5 and I know that's in the lower end of the normal weight range... but the problem is the weight is not distributed evenly if you know what I mean. I appear tall because my limbs are long and skinny, while most of the fat appears in the central abdomen / tummy area.
So imagine a tall, skinny person with a round, bulging tummy. SO NOT attractive.

Despite frequenting the gym for almost a year with mixtures of cardio (treadmill, cycling, Combat, dance) and strength exercises, I don't seem to be building up too much muscle at the skinny places haha. I definitely do see the slightly larger biceps and chest. But it's all overshadowed by the fact that my tummy doesn't want to be flat despite my vigorous cardio efforts to 'burn' it LOL.

I know we are all facing unrealistic social pressures of what the male physique should be like, and I know having a great body doesn't guarantee good health because so much of it is internal and has to do with lifestyle and environment. But damn I really want my tummy to flatten out!!! I don't even think I'm eating that much, so why is the fat so vividly present even though I gym 3 to 4 times a week?

OK this post is so vain and superficial.
Even my eyes are rolling at myself now :P

XOXO from the skinny fat J-boy

Online Shopping!!

OK I know I'm late at this, but I'm starting to discover the wonders of online shopping! Have not bought anything yet, but browsing through all the clothing sites is making me salivate, much like window shopping at the mall haha. To be honest, I find shopping at malls these days to be so boring because I can't seem to find things that I like. Or things that I like but are also not super expensive.

I stumbled upon this site called Zalora, I'm sure all you hip lizards out there have heard of it already.
http://www.zalora.com.my/men/

There are also many small, independent blog shops on the Internet selling pretty decent stuff, but it feels shady because it's less heard of, whereas Zalora looks like a much bigger corporation. Zalora also offers free shipping and they deliver within the next business day.

Looking at different clothing and accessories is a good way to assess what's on trend now, or what you are still lacking in your wardrobe. The only disadvantage is you don't actually get to try these items on... so you should avoid getting things that require an exact fit like shoes if you're not sure about the sizing of that particular brand. Clothes like T-shirts are a little easier I guess.

Speaking of fashion did you know H&M is coming to Malaysia?!?! The first outlet will be at Lot 10, opening later this year. H&M is a massive retailer from Sweden, famous for bringing relatively simple, but high-end looking stuff at a much more commercial and competitive price.
The company has collaborated with celebrities like Madonna, Kylie & David Beckham to create their own mini collection, as well as designer labels like Stella McCartney, Lanvin, Versace and most recently Marni to create a much more affordable line for the masses.

H&M is already in Singapore, check out their site http://www.hm.com/sg/ to see the prices and type of clothing they offer.

So, are they any interesting fashion sites or retail sites that you can share with me?? :)

 XOXO

The Amazing Tongue

Hehe the title is a little word play of The Amazing Spiderman, which I have yet to watch. But I love love love Emma Stone, she is such a cool chick, definitely not gonna miss this movie :)

Back to the topic. You know it doesn't matter how much experience you have, you never stop learning. Such is life. And last night my senses were brought to new heights thanks to this guy with just the most amazing tongue work.  PERIOD.

The tongue is such an amazing organ.
Soft and moist, agile and sensitizing.
But it needs a master who knows how to control it.
The most amazing sensation can be created, it even beats the favourite organ of man, the penis.
Yes, tongue beats penis.
The penis is just a hard rod that pokes and squirts semen, the tongue has so much more flexibility and potential. The penis is a sensitive organ for the top, but the tongue creates more pleasure for bottoms.

I think most of us are familiar with using tongue when kissing.
And for tops, using tongue to relax and moisten the hole during foreplay.

But last night I experienced something more that was surprisingly fantastic. This guy was just tongue-ing me at all the right places. The groin area is actually such a sensitive zone, from below the waist. And also the ass, not just the hole but also the cheeks. Repetitive, sort of circular motions. And yeah it probably takes some skill. Not sure how he was doing it because I was enjoying it so much I just closed my eyes and moaned uncontrollably. He was probably moving his head furiously because it was so quick and vigorous and aggressive..... and the moistness just created the most pleasurable sensation ever. I was literally shivering in delight. Haha hope this is not TMI.

I used to think that doing too much licking was too wet and gross, but if done correctly can just be so damn powerful. So I have an assignment for everyone, USE MORE TONGUE the next time you do it. Seriously, don't hesitate and just go for it hahaha!! Let me know if the results are good :P

XOXO

KL Massage + Sauna

I've been a good boy for too long... been a while since I let myself loose due to exams and trying to go for the dating/relationship path. But that's not exactly working out for me.

The best way to get over a guy that pays no attention to you is just to pamper yourself like a king haha.

So far I've only been to Studio 89 and Mandi-Manda, there's plenty more in KL and Cheras. Being a PJ boy I've never really know my way in KL so I decided to head for the most direct one: Day Thermos, situated in the heart of Bukit Bintang, right behind Grand Millennium hotel, near Pavilion and Lot 10. I studied the map online before hand and got off the Bukit Bintang monorail station and reached Day Thermos in about 5 minutes.
http://www.daythermos.com/

I knew they offered massage service so I went for it. It's my first time getting a full body massage!! So exciting. This place looks posh and boasts lovely, arty deco, but it comes with a price. RM30 for entry and RM30 for a 1 hour massage. Definitely not something I plan to do often.  The crowd is quite international due to the location, so tourists and mix of local races :)

MASSAGE
Didn't get to pick the masseur, but I got a hot one anyway. Think he's Thai. At the reception I was asked to shower first, then meet the masseur at the bar. He brought me up to the 3rd floor where the private cabins and massage rooms were. Nothing fancy, basically a mattress on the ground. He laid a towel on it, I got naked and he started working on my back. The sequence was something like Shoulders-Back-Left Hand-Right Hand-Back-Butt-Thighs-Calves-Feet. Yeah he was squeezing and rubbing my butt and even a little bit of fondling of the hole hahaha. Then I had to turn around and lie on my back. That's when something got really hard and stood up like a pole. Couldn't control it, he didn't seem to mind so I just relaxed and let him continue his work. He was in a T-shirt and swimming trunks, thought of groping him when he placed my hand on his thighs, but decided not to in the end haha... coz I don't think it's that kind of massage. He didn't touch me there. But it was kinky, when he was rubbing my back he was actually sitting on me so I could feel his junk through those trunks. There was lots of massage lotion being used, it was real smooth and aromatic haha. The final part involved some stepping, pulling of my legs like yoga style haha, then I sat down and he started like punching my back. Some parts were quite painful I screamed a little LOL. Actually even now my shoulders hurt a little so I'm not sure if that's normal or not hahaha....

SAUNA

After the massage I felt so loose and ready for some meat action. Had to shower to wash off the lotion, then I wandered around the 2nd floor. Lovely rain shower but lots of peeping toms. The thing about going to a sauna for a first time is figuring out the layout of the darkroom and steam rooms, and also the etiquette of the place because each sauna is a little different, so I was gliding clumsily near to the wall, but that's part of the fun of trying a new place! And the advantage of being slim, Y&C is that you're like honey and bees come your way too easily. I had to dismiss a very persistent uncle several times who followed me around, but then a hot jock picked me up in the steam room... was attracted to his face mostly and smell coz he was wearing some cologne and it worked like a charm LOL *tip to Tops out there, wear cologne*. We went upstairs for some privacy and you can guess the rest ;)

Ultimately this has been a great day of adventure. Venturing to KL is like breaking new heights to me. And for those of you who like to judge, YES, I like sex. So sue me.

XOXO

They're Not That Hot

WARNING: This is a super bitching post.

So remember I was talking about a pool party that I saw on Facebook? Well you can check out the page here:
http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Official-Rainbow-Weekend-Party-Community/118895731512939

It's a public page so anyone can view it, so it's not like I'm revealing some big secret.

Anyway I noticed some of these hotties at the gym I go to....
Even before I saw the pics I've consistently seen 2 of the guys on Mondays.

Then I saw another 3 today.

And guess what? They are NOT as hot as I thought they would be.
Haha I guess pictures and fb profiles can be deceiving... I mean for a pool party, when you see a bunch of guys posing shirtless together, they all tend to look hot, but when you break it down and REALLY look at them individually in real life, you will find that they are just regular people. I learned this from watching How I Met Your Mother when Barney illustrated the same example on a group of chicks at the bar hahaha. I mean, I'm not saying these guys are ugly, just that there's nothing special about them.

One of those guys was actually really short, which you wouldn't know from his fb profile. I looked like the Eiffel tower / supermodel on heels when I walked past him haha! And I'm not even that tall, just 171. Also the muscles you see in pics, somehow they look less impressive in real life.
Another thing that put me off was how vain they were. OK I know I'm vain too, but you should have seen the way they were looking at themselves shamelessly in the changing room mirror... and for so long LOL! I could have showered and got dressed in the time they spend in front of the mirror admiring their body and playing with their hair.

Unfortunately I also over heard some of their conversation in Cantonese, which I happen to understand by the way. Just talking about random, shallow stuff which made me feel so much better about myself. I know you cannot judge a person by the small talk they have with their mates in the gym, but man do I feel like I've got so much more going on in the brains department.

OK I know this post is sounding very hypercritical and bitchy. I apologize for it if I've offended any hunks out there. I know this is a generalization and not all of you are like that... just so happens that I ran into the stereotypical ones today.

My real point of posting this is to send out the message that you don't need to feel jealous or think less of yourself by comparing to the "hot" people you see, coz if you wanna be hot like them, you just need to work hard at the gym and maybe dress and groom yourself a little better. More importantly is your character and how you carry yourself, and how you treat others, because that's something that no amount of vanity can compensate for!! :)

XOXO 

Weak, but not for long

Let this awful moment be documented so that I will remember it.

I think I finally know why I'm such an advocate of the single life and being independent and man free. Or at least one of the reasons. It's because the feeling of liking someone can be really self depreciating and it changes the way you see yourself.

And I'm not even talking about full on love. Just something as simple as a crush. When you realize how awesome that someone is... you come to the realization of how horribly you fare in comparison. The word is 'lacking'. It makes you feel inadequate. For example not being muscular enough, not tall enough, not good looking enough, not having the best character or personality. It's almost like your flaws are being highlighted by a giant spot light.

And I'm normally not that self conscious. I'm actually confident with how I look and my personality.
I know it sounds stupid, and I do think it's stupid, but I can't help but feel that way. Whenever you see someone better than you, doesn't it make you feel somewhat inferior?

OK this is stupid. I'm happy with everything I have and I should be contented.

All this self doubt just because I have been checking out the fb profiles of the hot instructor and all the elite plu hotties in the country. They're all gorgeous and going to pool parties and stuff. It's amazing how much you can see on Facebook.

OK that's it. I'm done feeling bad. It's stupid. I know I'm hot haha. And I'm proud of my character, the way I was raised, my strengths when it comes to dealing with obstacles, how I stay focused.

I feel a strong connection to this song and video. It's about dealing with your personal journey and beating the darkness.