Sigh, how pathetic...
I know I always say that I'm cool with being on my own and enjoying the peace and quiet with no one else to bother me, but gee today happens to be that rare day when I felt like having some social interaction and couldn't get it...
It so happens that my parents are away for an over night trip, and my mind was immediately thinking about all the naughty things I could do hahaha! The first thing that came to my mind was going to MP, because I've never been.... but after scrolling through my phone and computer I realized I have no gay friends to go with! Like there was no appropriate person to ask. Then I started thinking about random things, like bringing a guy home, since he can spend the night with me and we can cuddle and all in my bed........ Don't worry, there's no guy in my bedroom now LOL! Decided that the risk was too high just in case my parents came home early.
I somehow managed to resist the strong urge to go to the sauna or get a massage, because like I've said I'm looking for something more meaningful now, and sometimes when you're feeling a little down/lonely, going to the sauna and having casual sex only makes you feel crappier about yourself.
So I resorted to the only other thing that could make me happy: Shopping & Food! Went to Pavilion by myself, and gosh walking through the large crowds by yourself also kind of makes you feel crappy... In the end, I didn't find anything worth buying, so I bought some food home, and had dinner in front of the TV in an empty house.
Which makes me think, being gay may call for a lonely future, like years from now when my parents are gone, and my siblings are all married with their own family, I would be returning from work to an empty house, eating dinner by myself, and then going to bed and going to work the next morning, repeating the cycle of loneliness..... Hahaha OMG I should start thinking about getting a cat LOL!!!
XOXO
Man, that's the sad and cruel truth. If you don't find the one, you end up alone most probably. That's why the legend of getting a healthy body so you can take care of yourself in the long run.
ReplyDeleteA dog will be a better companion if you are on a landed property!
Yesh to doggy :D!
DeleteAgreed with the doggy xD
Deletehahahaha so many dog lovers huh!!
DeleteBut I think cat is more symbolic of like loneliness mah haha.. It's the widow or spinster's pet! :P
But sometimes cats scare me too, like when they look me in the eye and I get goosebumps... Dogs are a little hyper IMO, but yeah no doubt that they make great companions, and are so loyal to their owners! :)
Itular that day when you said you not free on tuesday and i asked if you free on wed and you just keep quiet only...
ReplyDeleteSpeaking of cats i sang to them just now and they both fallen asleep.LOL
Sorry Ash! was busy on Tuesday and Weds was just PMS-ing... I don't feel like seeing people every day :P
DeleteAwww means you have good singing voice haha..
Hmm, I'll probably get a dog instead.
ReplyDelete:)
haha another dog lover! I guess they can be quite adorable ;)
DeleteJust go lah~ To MP I mean~
ReplyDeleteYep~ loneliness can be rather unbearable at times... Oh well... =]
haha takkan go alone mah, like so kesian :P
Deleteyeah.... sucks to be alone when you're down, but thank goodness I'm OK now.. the feeling only comes occasionally
*slap* "zok ding dit"... please arr, cannot act like this one... must be visionary!!
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=Wv65Avng6zg
can one.. people can you also can one.. must have faith !!
Awwww the video is so sweet OMG!!! Wish my parents were like that.... though it's impossible, but yeah...... such a cute couple :3
DeleteOK, I will have faith, and you must too! <3
You really becoming my nun sister already la you.. Lol
ReplyDeleteSpending alone time shopping is good too I guess, and I don't believe you no gay friends to call out lo.. Haha
Don't think so sad thoughts la, go get a hubby to go home to everyday! :D
Oh nun Sister LeoNut... I just get a little lost emotionally sometimes haha... And not to say no gay friends, but sometimes just feel like there's no right person to call out... :P
DeleteI want hubby! But mana dapat?
Haha, i wish i know where to dapat la.. The second we find, we shall drop our sistership.. haha, when i'm back, can call me out la. Haha, we go bitchy together! =P
DeleteHaha yes, we have so many people, I mean things, to bitch about ;) *monkey cover mouth emoticon* *monkey cover ears emoticon* *monkey cover eyes emoticon* hahaha
Deletewell thats reality . thats why its a fair game for everyone .
ReplyDeleteYou chose a guy base on his looks or features , You lose at the end . You go for love , you gain .
in THE gay world , many are alone bcoz they are choosy and look on looks . Many good looking gay guys are full of themselves and will only filter "good looking" pple as their candidate . Many honest average looking guys will be dissed and not even given the chance to date a "handsome" guy bcoz they are considered below the choice factor.
Thats why many guys that are straight marry average girls (or vice versa ), bcoz in the future , looks fade away , and you will be old , haggard , balding , feeble , and poop in a diaper .
haha what you say is true, and in some ways yeah I do judge potential dates based on looks and other external features like height and weight, apart from like personality and character.. that's how I normally filter who to reply to on dating apps and all... That's my first criteria, I know it's superficial but I just can't help it, I mean if there's no physical attraction at all then what's the point right?
DeleteI know it takes time to get to know someone, and personally I don't think I set the bar too high, as in I know I'm not that attractive either haha... so the guys that I go for don't need to be super good looking or super fit and muscular.. I think I'm average only haha.. But yeah, if I don't really like what I see then maybe I will still get to know that person, but as a friend... Having said that, some good looking guys that I'm attracted to, once I start chatting with them and I realize they are douches or our personalities are not compatible, then I won't go further into it either.. At the end of the day it's really the whole package that I seek :)
Hahaha now that I'm typing it out, I know it sounds incredibly shallow, but what can I do? First impressions are always made based on the sense of sight!
as i said , it depends , if u look at looks than u dont see the real picture. but anyway , im not saying ur wrong . bcoz i wont judge u . \
Deletewhat i do know is that i dont really care abt picking good looking guys anyway . I exercise , look healthier and fitter , and try to go for the average ones . For me , i seem to be turned on by average pple . Just cant be turned on by handsome pple , coz i appreciate flaws in a person .i like a person with their imperfections .But i have many flaws myself , i am not so tall , and am genetically balding at an early age , my twenties ....:(
haha no one is perfect Ooi, we ALL have our flaws :)
DeleteAwww, there's nothing you can do about the genetics part... so maybe you just need to rock the bald look! Seriously, I would prefer a guy with a clean, bald head than a guy that is undergoing the process of balding, like Prince William... Sometimes the bald look can be balanced with some facial hair, I don't mean like long beards, but maybe just some along the jaw line, like this pic of James Blake:
http://hairstyletwist.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2011/08/CNO-004686.jpg