Body Conscious

Recently I've been feeling fat.

Again, this sounds stupid and you're probably rolling your eyes now.

Something is wrong with me. Been having really good appetite and my stomach growls for food too regularly :(

My current BMI is 19.5 and I know that's in the lower end of the normal weight range... but the problem is the weight is not distributed evenly if you know what I mean. I appear tall because my limbs are long and skinny, while most of the fat appears in the central abdomen / tummy area.
So imagine a tall, skinny person with a round, bulging tummy. SO NOT attractive.

Despite frequenting the gym for almost a year with mixtures of cardio (treadmill, cycling, Combat, dance) and strength exercises, I don't seem to be building up too much muscle at the skinny places haha. I definitely do see the slightly larger biceps and chest. But it's all overshadowed by the fact that my tummy doesn't want to be flat despite my vigorous cardio efforts to 'burn' it LOL.

I know we are all facing unrealistic social pressures of what the male physique should be like, and I know having a great body doesn't guarantee good health because so much of it is internal and has to do with lifestyle and environment. But damn I really want my tummy to flatten out!!! I don't even think I'm eating that much, so why is the fat so vividly present even though I gym 3 to 4 times a week?

OK this post is so vain and superficial.
Even my eyes are rolling at myself now :P

XOXO from the skinny fat J-boy