For a moment I thought that I was losing interest in men. But then, I checked, and realized I'm still not attracted to women. Then I switched on gay porn, I was still aroused.
But I'm losing interest in sex.
I just did it on Sunday. Went to the new place as planned. Nice and relaxing ambiance, it was well lit and decorated just like a spa. Maybe that put me off a little because it wasn't as skanky and dim like a dark alley LOL.
A really lovely guy chatted me up in the jacuzzi. Slightly older, taller than me, decent body, cute face. Normally I would jump at (or onto) that. Obviously he intended to have sex, otherwise he wouldn't have approached me. But I wasn't used to the fact that he spent so much time on small talk (not sex related). He talked about himself, what he did for a living, where he was from, etc. Normally guys that go to places like this don't bother. No strings attached.
This guy went on and on. Then we went into a room. Finally I was like 'Let's just do this already', but then something was wrong. Halfway through I just wanted it to end. Like it took forever. I wasn't enjoying it. Perhaps I felt guilty in a way, perhaps I was taken back by his friendliness and sincerity. Out of courtesy I followed through till the end. Would have been really rude to walk out without giving him the ending he deserved lol.
After that I just felt kind of mehhhhh... like even now, I don't feel like having sex with anyone. I'm still attracted to hot guys and porn and stuff... but I just don't feel like doing it with another person. I have no problems doing it with myself though, LOL......
Could this be the consequence of playing with the dildo? :O
What the hell is happening to me??
XOXO
It's just a phase ba :)!
ReplyDeleteI hope so... life would be so boring without lust LOL :P
DeleteCome back to the nun side~~ =3
ReplyDeleteEh! MEEEEEEEEEE GORENG! BILA YOU FREEEEEEEEEEE?? =P
Date set XOXO ;)
DeleteHmm..feel that should have sex with a person who love you...not just for the sake of sex??
ReplyDeletemaybe you're right... I've had so much casual sex to the point that it is becoming meaningless....
DeleteNow I just need to find someone I love that loves me... which is like super hard hahahaha... if that's the case that I'm going to stay dry for a LONG time :P
AHHH~ How's that place? lol~
ReplyDeleteComes in different flavor lah, tak kan everytime also strawberry chocolate kan? =P
hahaha... it's actually not bad, one of the nicer and more decent looking ones... They have a nice jacuzzi with warm water, and overall the ambiance is quite relaxing :)
Deletei don't think it's due to dildo,i got this theory that once we have sex too frequent our body will have err... higher 'resistance' to sex attractions,it's like eating a type of food everyday,you will get bored but you eventually need to eat...sooner or later;)
ReplyDeleteI think you're right! :O
DeleteNo. It's just a phase.
ReplyDeleteAt times like this, you are tired of sex and all you want now is just a relationship.
Hmm...
Maybe you could try abstaining for sex for one whole month..i think that would really bring back your appetite :)
ReplyDeletegood suggestion.... hahaha honestly I don't think I can last 1 month, but then that's the whole point of the exercise right? To get me horny and in the mood again :P
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