It's December

Wait, what... it's December already? Half a month left and then it's goodbye to 2013. I've never really been good with endings. Feeling all nostalgic and thinking too much, reflecting and all.

December has always been my favorite month of the year, probably because it's all festive and Christmas-y haha... and when you're a student it's sem break, honestly the best time to chill, party and hang out with friends and going on vacation. Have already met up with some friends lately who are back in town, but there are still a number of people I wanna catch up with (including bloggers) before 2014!!

Working definitely makes December less fun.... though I can't complain about the contractual bonus that's coming my way haha! Haven't done any Christmas shopping yet... This year it's going to be a quiet affair, with my parents being overseas, so it's just with my siblings... No plans yet. Kind of takes the mood away :(

I spent a bulk of this year falling hopelessly for someone that isn't even worth the time. I don't feel like I've achieved much.... Work wise it's been steady, I have learned new things and I guess I should feel good that there's still plenty to learn and experience in my current company.... so no plans to jump to another boat soon. Health wise, well I guess this year I actually see my body change a little, finally gaining some mass but lately the growth seems to have stopped. Maybe I need to push myself even harder and eat more protein LOL. More importantly, I hope I can stay healthy and not let my past illnesses trouble me too much in the future. 

Despite things going well with my career and everything's peaceful with family, I can't help but feel empty. Like it's all so routine and nothing more. Maybe every person who has just transitioned from student to employee feels like that. A stagnant lifestyle. Not much surprises... it might not be a bad thing, but I guess I'm looking for something else.

Feeling a little shitty because a family trip that was planned for January, and already booked and paid for, but due to a sudden twist of events led to it being "cancelled", or at least not all of us gets to go. I probably have to stay behind. The reason is a really shitty one, makes me feel disappointed and let down, but things are beyond my control. I just have to accept it.   

I'm still trying to look out for potential dates, but it's either no one's interested in me, or I'm not interested in the people that are. Constantly reminding myself not to be desperate hahaha... I do wanna go out more and just hang out with more guys... What scares me the most is that I might actually be getting a little too comfortable with being on my own, that I will start turning away every single person that comes my way :/  

This is such boring post, honestly I'm writing now just because I have nothing else to do LOL. The blogosphere has become kind of dead.... Thank you for still giving me a read!

Have a great holiday season everyone!
XOXO