New Hottie Part 2

We had another MOMENT.
Actually it could be my imagination hahaha.


I was disappointed that I couldn't see him in the lecture hall. That was the only chance to spy on him today. So my friends and I walked out the hall and... THERE HE WAS, just standing outside as though he was waiting for me!

We looked into each others eyes for like 2 seconds, then he turned away and left, like he was waiting to see me and right after that he walked away. I was headed elsewhere so we went opposite directions.

He was wearing a tight yellow shirt today, I didn't realize his body was toned, I bet he works out!!! *drools*


This is probably just in my head. My mind likes to play tricks on me when I have a crush on someone. This feeling is just insane. I feel like throwing my body on him and just beg him to kiss me. Arghh I can't stop thinking about him!!!!!!!!

New Hottie!

There's a new guy in my course and I have another crush!

OMG don't know where he came from, don't even know his name yet. But he is hot... and cute! A bit of facial hair also... so sexy! No movie star good looks but still totally my type. I'm drooling just thinking about him.

First saw him last Friday during morning lecture. I was early so I went into the lecture theater and he walked in just before me. That was the first time we crossed eyes! My heart instantly skipped a beat.

I thought that was the only common class we shared. But today I discovered he was in the same Chemistry lab as me! Throughout the entire lab session I kept looking at him, and even walked past him intentionally a few times.

I get all self conscious around guys I like. The behaviour is so unnatural LOL.
I wonder if he notices me at all...

So far he has been keeping to himself, hasn't really joined any gangs yet.
I feel like talking to him but I'm shy. Besides there is a huge chance that he is straight.


God I feel like a stalker.

Pubic Hair

Forget about my miserable life for a moment, I got a question.
Yes, about pubic hair lol.

Do you guys shave? Or trim it at least?

I'm curious what happens if you don't... will it grow longer and longer continuously just like the hair on your head? Or is there a limit?

What about armpit hair? Won't it become a hanging forest if it grows forever?

Sorry for being gross.
I'm a curious person. I ask a lot of questions.
Can someone please answer them, pretty please with sugar on top? :)

Lonely

Lonely is such a pathetic word. Yet that's exactly how I feel now.
I have family & friends. Yet I still feel empty.

No one truly gets me. Sometimes even I don't get me.
Every now and then I feel isolated. Disconnected from everyone else.

I can be independent. I'm not looking for someone to take care of me.
That's not what I need.

I'm not looking for someone to talk to. I have friends for that.
I'm not much of a talker anyway.

I'm not looking for casual sex. It doesn't get me anywhere.
It's not as pleasurable as I imagined.

I guess I'm lonely because I have yet to meet my soul mate.
There are many guys on the web, yet I can't find a match.
Someone who understands me. Someone who wants the same things as me.
I have yet to experience true love.

I feel it's impossible to find "THE ONE" through the Internet because it's just different from meeting someone in your daily life, someone that you already know or always see, you know like the guy from college that you have a crush on.

It's just hard to be attracted to someone that you have not met in person in the first place. People who seek love online already have the intention when they chat with strangers. So it's not like you fall in love naturally because you are genuinely attracted to that person, you know what I mean?

Ain't easy finding someone online who is from your social circle, who can identify with your background and lifestyle. In a way it's easier to look in "real life", the people who hang with us, people that we can relate to in other aspects. Unfortunately it's also not easy to tell if they are interested in us... After all you can't just tell your friend that you like him and ask if he is gay.

Either way it's difficult. No wonder I'm still alone now........

picture exchange

I'm back in the scene.

Had some new responses at the dating site, when I first saw that dude's face profile pic I should have known it was too good to be true. It was a hot Chinese twink. Somehow I believed him.

After chatting with that person for a while, we exchanged pics of our you-know-where. I'm into that.

Immediately after looking at his body pics I asked if his face profile pic was real. Now he tells me that it isn't, but I give him credit for giving me his real Friendster link. However this was only after he saw my real pics and indicated his interest in having sex with me.

Well I wasn't impressed and I'll tell you why:
1. That dude said he had a 5.5inch dick but what I saw was perhaps not even half of that.
2. The Chinese twink pic was misleading. He is Malay, and definitely NOT a twink.
3. He lied about his age.
4. The rest of his profile is probably bogus too.


I feel bad for rejecting him after seeing his true self. To judge someone based on their looks is wrong, I know that. But that doesn't change the fact that he lied.

I don't. The pics and info I reveal is real. Guess I need to be even more careful now.

Messy Dream

Had a dirty messy dream last night. I believe this is my first involving a guy.

I remember having a couple of different dreams when I woke up this morning, including one about my mum getting Alzheimer's disease. But there was one that's still clear in my head.

It starts off in my bed. I'm naked with another guy who I can only assume is my boyfriend because I wouldn't take a stranger home. It's late at night and we are about to have sex BUT didn't for reasons I can't remember. After all some dreams don't make sense.

The next thing I recall is the guy jerking off in front of me and about to cum on the sheets. I like my sheets to be clean so I put both my hands together and formed a 'bowl' to contain his load. I didn't expect his load to be so HUGE it started overflowing.... seriously! It was milky white and watery.

SO I responded by throwing his load on the floor and there was a big mess. Then he looked at me and said "You should have just let me cum on the bed". Then I went into the toilet to clean myself up. Can't recall what happened in the toilet, but I remember coming out and seeing him seated on the floor, cleaning up with a roll of toilet paper! That was the sweetest part of the dream. To see him clean after his own mess.


It's a shame I don't remember how he looks like but I bet he must have been hot! ;)

Strange Place

Been distancing myself from this world for a while now.

I'm not sure what I want.
When I was single, I was craving to be in a relationship.
Now that I'm starting to meet guys, I feel like being single again.

I'm quite happy on my own now. Maybe this feeling is temporary, maybe I'm just getting cold feet.

I'm so fucked up right?