The Wave

Something I would like to share.

Not sure if you guys join dating/buddy sites or whatever you call it. I noticed some sort of trend in terms of responses.

When you first join, responses are rather frequent being the newbie and all, after a while things slow down gradually and eventually it reaches a silent point. Sometimes I log in several times a day just to check if there are new messages or if anyone has viewed my profile. Yeah it's pathetic right LOL.

After that initial wave, responses come in bunches. Some days there's nothing, then some days there are several approaches! I joined 2 sites, so it can get quite messy when I'm getting on with a few guys at the same time. I tend to forget certain things.

But those are what I call lucky days. Rare in fact. Most days it's nothing. It can make you feel quite low. Sometimes I wonder how I can enhance my profile, like posting naughty pictures or notes. But that's not really being yourself right, it's like pretending or exaggerating just to seek attention. A profile should reflect who you are in a sincere manner.

It's so hard to find a man with substance. Maybe I'm looking at the wrong place. Almost every guy starts their conversation indicating desire for sex. OK maybe some start with a brief intro and small talk then ask for sex. Sometimes I entertain them when I'm horny but in the long run I know this is totally not what I want.

Even making genuine friends from these sites is hard. Most come and go. Some disappear when they know there's not gonna be any action, some disappear after one conversation. OK but there are a few nice people I don't regret meeting. Really helped me understand the gay world better.

And FYI regarding the previous post I was unsuccessful at going wild LOL. At that time I was in the process of meeting several guys for you-know-what, but somehow they all got turned down one way or another. I just didn't want to anymore.

Maybe I want to stay a good boy for now.
But if a nice, hot guy comes along then I won't hesitate to unleash the animal in me that's just dying to come out. Gonna drive him nuts. ;)

Comeback

If anyone is still reading this well I have returned!

After the disappointment of MK I isolated myself from love/relationships.

Now I return a little different. The faith I had for relationships is gone and truth be told all I wanna do now is to go wild. Revisiting the sites I abandoned for potential hook ups.

When you're horny you feel empowered over your body and it's just so sexy. It makes me wanna do all sorts of naughty things.

I do not know how long this feeling will last, maybe I might regret it later, but I'll deal with that when it happens.

Coincidentally this song perfectly describes my current situation.

Heal

They say time heals everything.

I know for sure nothing is going to happen between MK and I.
But I still see him so often, it makes it hard to forget him.
At times like this, I turn to music for some much needed healing.

Truth is out

One thing about facebook is how the truth can be revealed. Can be a good or bad thing.

I discovered that MK, the guy I have been dreaming about for almost a month is as STRAIGHT as an arrow. Sure his relationship status says 'single', but it's so obvious he isn't. There is this girl that's posting all the mushy stuff on his wall. Kisses and hugs, calling him 'dada'. And he responded by 'liking' all those posts.

What's wrong with me? How come I keep falling for straight men?

Perhaps the problem is NOT me.

What's wrong with straight men? How come they keep behaving/acting like gay guys? Why stare at me with your dreamy eyes? Why appear/walk in front of me so often? Why give me false hope?


I guess this is a good discovery. I can stop wasting time thinking about him and focus on more important things. Kelly Clarkson's Since You Been Gone is playing in my head now!

Bigger Than Big

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Ricky Martin comes out

That's right, Ricky Martin has finally come out of the closet.

After years of speculation, he finally posted a statement on his website yesterday.
What he said was inspiring, and I have always thought he was super hot!!!

http://rickymartinmusic.com/portal/news/news.asp?item=114532


LOVE YOU RICKY!

Technically Friends

He accepted my friend request on facebook.

It took a lot of courage for me to add him... but I really want to get to know him. Or at least view his full profile (PICS!!!) haha.

So many thoughts in my head as I considered clicking the 'add as friend' button. What are the consequences of my action?

First of all, I'm sure he must wonder how I know his name.
Secondly, why I added him since we don't know each other.

My feelings for him are too strong I just couldn't care about the consequences anymore.
If he has feelings for me, then I'm sure now he will know how I feel and we can have some progress!
If he doesn't, well then maybe he will see me as a crazy stalker, so I better come up with a good excuse for adding him if he confronts me.

I will definitely run into him tomorrow. My plan is just to pretend nothing happened. Hopefully I won't be embarrassed!