Another Year

At the beginning of 2013, I honestly had the feeling that this was the year. Being in a happy, stable point in life, having a great bond with family and well settled into my current job, I felt ready for..... love. I know you cannot decide when exactly you're going to be in a relationship, but as I said, I felt like romance and having that special someone was the only thing missing in my life to feel complete.

That clarity was sadly missing from March to July, getting worse from month to month, no thanks to my unhealthy obsession with a certain someone.

That business is done, but it showed that perhaps I wasn't ready after all. Or maybe I was just too eager, and unrealistically hopeful.... maybe I wanted him just for the sake of being with someone. But I have to say, he is the only man I have had feelings for in a long time. Nobody catches my eye like him. It's not just about the looks, you can see he is a nice and gentle soul. Seeing him ignited a passion within me... but somewhere along the way it got out of hand and I took things too far.

So as my birthday approaches soon, I can't help but feel the clock ticking, and my wish for 2013 would not come true after all. I can live on my own, no doubt about that, but I just want to experience love like everyone else before I die.

I know, I have the rest of my life to find love and meet that someone and be in love.... but right now would be nice thank you very much.

At the mean time, it's gonna be a single 23 year old. I'm still thankful for family and the lovely colleagues I have. Last week they treated me to a lovely lunch even though I have been working there for less than a year :)

Staying positive,
XOXO