The Void

After all is said and done, I'm left feeling exhausted and really just empty on the inside.

It's not bad all the time, there are instances where I feel relieved and normal, especially at work when I'm having a laugh with my colleagues, it's like nothing happened. It's only when I'm back home at night, in my room.... recalling memories from the past months, or things related to him, like hearing the name of the company he works at now... it just burns. Having the image of him in my mind, and then realizing none of it was real, brings about great emotional pain.

But like I said, it's not all the time. I'm alright most days and hours. Maybe it had something to do with seeing him at the gym just now. It's like nothing happened, we now go about our own business, he pays no attention to me anymore, I try my hardest not to look at him.

I will let go, in my own time. Right now, the wounds are still fresh. I don't know why I keep peeling the scab, so it's preventing me from healing completely.

Listening to this just made me tear up like a pathetic bitch. But it's so true to how I feel.

The words at the beginning of the video........

XOXO