Gym Hottie Tease!!!

Arghhhhhhhhhh my mind is about to explode!

I'm elated because the hottie I was talking about did show up again for combat class, and once again he chose to stand next to me hehehehehe :D
I know it doesn't mean anything... but it felt awesome when he walked into the studio moments after I went in and took my spot. Maybe he wanted to see where I was standing so he can be closer to me hahaha. I purposely chose a different spot from last week to see if he will still stay close to me or stick to his spot last week.

I know, I know now I'm just over thinking. We even placed our water bottles near to each other's by the pillar. During the class he was focused, but in between tracks when we had towel and water break I kept feeling like there was some sort of connection... even though there were so many people in the room, at that moment when we were sort of facing each other drinking water, it was like just the 2 of us there haha!
The final part where we did the push ups our mats were so close to each other, and I noticed he looked at me when we were doing push ups... maybe coz I was like half dead and my arms were beginning to wobble haha :P

And you know what's the icing on the cake???
Turns out his locker was just two lockers away from mine!!!!! Now that is FATE right haha (thank you God!). I saw him take his shirt off and he was admiring his body in the mirror. OK I know that's vain but his body is so fine he can do that rightfully so. I pretended to be busy with my phone (classic me) and he wrapped his towel and took his pants off. Didn't see underwear coming off. I thought he went to shower but actually he went to the sauna.

At this point I felt so useless because I really wanted to say something to him today, but I was such a chicken I didn't even dare to look at him. Prior to that I actually wrote my mobile number on a small piece of paper and I thought of slipping it into his locker when he was away... I almost did, but then I realized that would be borderline stalker-ish and crazy so I resisted. I proceeded to shower...

I thought he would be gone by the time I came out, but ta-dah there he was sitting in front of his locker! It was then that I realize he was only at the sauna. He looked at me when I was walking half naked to my locker but as I was dressing he proceeded to the shower area. I saw him holding a grey Renoma underwear and it hit me that he must be a shy guy coz he doesn't take off his underwear in the locker area and puts clean ones on in the shower. Kind off disappointed LOL :P

I hung around until he came out from the shower. By this time I'm sure he noticed me there coz I was there for so long... so he either knows I like him or just thinks I'm a super slow poke. And that was it for today... didn't want to stay too long coz that would be too creepy of me.

Now that I got a better look at him today, I noticed:
1. He is shorter than me.. And I'm only 170. But his hot, innocent but handsome look totally makes up for it!
2. He sweats a lot!!! His hair was drenched halfway through class and had to wrap his towel around his head. By the time class was over, the mat that he was lying on was full of sweat. I was turned on LOL.
3. His skin was so fair.... and smooth!! In comparison I look like a dark ugly witch...
4. He has quite hairy legs like me hahahaha
5. I have no idea if he's PLU because my radar is ridiculously unreliable. I don't wanna make an ass of myself by scaring off a str8 man in the gym. What if he tells everyone? :(

So the question is... next week if I find out where his locker is (I already memorized his lock shape and colour), should I slip my number in? Is that too crazy?
I'm too chicken to talk to him! Gahhhhhhhh >.<'''

what happened?

A lot is going through my mind... stuff related to me, stuff related to the people around me.

Looking back at my posts in the last 3 months or so I realize I've become a different person. It's not necessarily a good or bad thing, after all change is a part of life and all of us are ever changing. A progression.

Perhaps my recent lifestyle choices have been questionable and some of you probably don't agree with it. There are days where I do feel some sort of regret, though on other days I see it differently and my conscience allows me to go through with it. Kind off see-sawing back and forth.
Like there are 2 sides of me, and right now the wilder, bitchier side is winning, maybe because I'm feeling the need to let loose and have fun to compensate for all the years that I've been such a good boy. 

On another note, today is the first time I've felt lonely in a very long time. Been fierce and independent all this while, and honestly enjoying it. But this horrible feeling of self pity can be attributed to one man. A hot, young, handsome, charming, sexy stranger that had a brief connection (non-sexual) with me at the gym. I have been gushing about him on facebook. There's just something special about him that reminded me of what it was like to have feelings for someone (recalling all the times I had crushes on the guys in Uni), recalling the possibility of actually being in a relationship. And then I remembered the pain, vulnerability and complications that comes along with love.

All of these feelings were ignited not because I'm in love with this guy, nor is he in love with me. We barely know each other. But it's because I see myself being with someone like him... as in someone that you envision having a future with (not him specifically, but he's definitely my type)... hence I started having thoughts of the possibilities in life.

But then again on deeper thought, I think I'm still not ready and don't want a relationship now. The cons far outweigh the pros. Maybe all I need is a good fuck lol. 

Hahaha sorry if I'm confusing you... I don't really know how to explain it.
And this is the first time I'm writing about emotions in a long time.
Hope that doesn't make me any less exciting haha! I'm still a bitch that says it like it is. :P 

My Dream Guy

LOL the title is sooooo 'high school teen'.

My latest TV crush comes in the form of one super gorgeous Jake McDorman. Most of you are probably not familiar with this name because he's not that well known.

Perhaps those of you that watch Greek on StarWorld will recognize him as the oh so dreamy Evan Chambers!

I love his character Evan in Greek. It's so totally my kind of dream partner hahaha.

For those of you who don't watch the show, I'll give you a breakdown:
Evan Chambers
1. One of the brothers of the Omega Chi Delta (ΩΧΔ) fraternity, which is the group of preppy guys that excel in academics as well as sports. Basically the well put together type of fraternity, the good boys.
2. A little arrogant, proud of himself kind of guy. Ambitious, natural leader, has big goals, knows what career he wants.
3. Reserved at times, kinda shy in a cute way when it comes to approaching someone he likes.
4. Doesn't really know how to be romantic, but is relatively loyal.
5. Bossy and irrational at times
5. Dresses in a preppy manner, never sloppy.
6. Obviously a fit body, charming, handsome, with those beautiful eyes!  

I know I know this kind of guy is probably too good to be true, I bet you won't find someone like that in real life. That's why I call it my dream guy, he only exists in my dreams haha!! :P

On a random note, it is now officially 11.11.11!!! I bet some people will be getting married on this day =.=

Facebook

Ahhh the title is an obvious giveaway.

I have recently set up a Facebook account to interact with you guys more, and also to meet more people! :)

This is my 2nd account, I think you guys know why... I will not disclose too much personal information in this profile, but if there's anything you guys would like to know about me, don't hesitate to PM me as I will try to answer things you would like to know one-on-one... provided that it's something reasonable and not overly breaching.

This is really meant to get myself more immersed in the circle. 
I didn't set up this account to spy on any of you LOL... not intentionally at least haha!

If there's going to be anything personal that I decide to share, it's probably going to be on there rather than here. So please add me by clicking the badge on the right --->

Please and thank you, with sugar on top ;)


P.S. After listening to the song I posted up in the previous post, I realised the ending of the bridge was super horrible. Sorry if I made anyone sick haha. I plan to record more songs soon :)

 

Another J-Boy Cover!

*drumroll* dddeeerrrrruuuuummmmmmm....

Remember not too long ago I did some covers of Rihanna, Keri Hilson and Rebecca Black?
That time I only used a mic to record my voice and while the mic was plugged in to the computer, the speaker no longer worked so I couldn't play any music to go along with the singing..... So the acapella was perhaps dreadful to you haha :P

Anyway, this time round I'm using a camera to record.. so I can have the background music!! YAY ME LOL.

Hope you like it! ;)
Currently loving this song
p.s. It seriously takes long to upload videos on YouTube =.=

Self Facial

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Different

Seeing how some of you are getting into new relationships once again highlights the fact that I'm different from most of you. I don't know if I should laugh or cry...

Lately bloggers and friends seem to be breaking up and forming new relations more frequently than usual... quite quickly I might add. This just enhances my skepticism on love and relationships today.

Forgive me for saying this, but I think some people get into relationships because they need it and not because they truly want it. Some people just can't bare to be single, they think it's such a horrible situation to be in. They need the affection and attention of someone, or they need someone to focus on to give their attention to. To me that's just pathetic. Stand up for yourself bitch and celebrate being independent for a change. When you're single, you don't need to feel like something is lacking or you must search for someone. Seriously.

I'm not saying that we should be loners and die alone... if you meet someone really special then hell yeah by all means take a chance. Get to know him. I hope you guys understand what I'm trying to convey. I just find it really frustrating from what I observe in society (including str8 people), a lot of people are taking relationships so lightly, they meet someone and after a while they say they're an item... and before you know it it's over and then within the shortest amount of time they find someone else again. I just wanna slap them.

These people give love a bad name. If you don't really love someone, don't commit to him in the first place. I beg you, please don't get into relationships if you don't visualize/see yourself having a true/long future with that person. It could take months or years to know if he's the right fit.. so be it. And once you're together with someone, don't let it go that easily when things get tough. Fight for it for god's sake! I mean if that person means anything to you, you gotta hold on to that love.

I really admire my parents because they were each others first, and their marriage has been together for over 30 years. I have seen for myself that at times things weren't so pretty and there have been fights/arguments/accusations over the years, but you know what.. in the end they always make up because they get the bigger picture of holding on to the institution of love, and setting an example for us kids! I truly believe that my parents still love each other till today. I can see it in their eyes when they interact :)

SO, the CONCLUSION for this post:

1. IT'S OK TO BE SINGLE! DON'T FEEL LIKE YOU NEED SOMEONE TO BE COMPLETE. 

I'M SINGLE AND LOVING IT!!!

2. IF YOU'RE EVER LUCKY ENOUGH TO MEET SOMEONE SPECIAL (WHICH MAY TAKE A LONG TIME FOR YOU TO REALIZE IF HE IS), THEN PLEASE HOLD ON TO HIM!

I just wrote a goddamn essay at this hour. You guys better read and comment OK hahahaha :P
Thank you in advance (i'm such a super bitch today)