Haha it's just around the corner, so I'm surprised no one has really mentioned it yet.
The much dreaded V. If you think about it, many things that we dislike/hate/fear begin with the letter 'V'. Examples:
Vomit
Vulnerability
Violence
Villan (nobody likes the bad guy)
Vacant (empty, lonely)
Vague (when someone is hiding something from us)
Vanished (when you can't find something you really need)
Variable (when you're craving for some constancy in life)
Victim (when you fall prey)
Venom (when you're bitten by a snake)
Vegetables (applies to meat lovers/carnivores)
Vampire (applies if you're a Lycan)
Vagina (LOL, nuff said)
If you still haven't guessed what I'm talking about, here's a Virtual slap hahaha :P
Yes for all of us Singletons out there, this is the day where we become oh so conscious of our relationship status. Despite being very comfortable as an independent, solo, individual, and constantly advocating how life can be so much less complicating being a soloist to your own musical, I can't help but feel uneasy on this day.
I know it's just a 'holiday' that corporations came up with in order to sell greeting cards, roses and chocolates, but still it plays with your head a little... like a reminder that there's something not quite right about me for remaining single on this day yet again for over 20 years.
You know I'm actually glad that it falls on a Tuesday. Then everyone will have to work/go to class and so there won't be much time to make a big deal out of it. Maybe just a fancy dinner and some extra special sex to mark the occasion, then it's off to bed early to get ready for the next day. Hahaha I'm evil I know :P
OK I don't want to be bitter. For those who are attached, I hope you will enjoy yourselves!!
P.S. Don't choke on the heart shaped chocolates :P
<3
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Recovery
Thanks everybody for putting up with yet another dramatic tantrum of mine. At least it doesn't come as frequent as the times I needed to dig a tampon out from my purse, or the times I've tried to smuggle some pastries out from the buffet spread nonchalantly.
I'm kidding. For those of you who don't have a sense of humour, at least you should have some innate sarcasm. Sorry... been watching a little too much of sarcastic American TV lately :P
Things seem to be back in control. Perhaps the whole feeling unwell thing had something to do with the fact that I was actually falling ill. Been having some nasty food poisoning... and I will spare you the details. All I can say is thank god someone invented the sitting toilet. And I don't think I will crave salmon anytime soon.
The bad stuff is still not fully out from my system yet, and my stomach is bloated like crazy. Oh wait... I'm starting to give details that you don't need to hear haha!
Perhaps the whole emotional and stomach meltdown is a sign of some sort. Coz if I wasn't feeling ill over this 4 day long weekend, I could bet my ass that I would have definitely went slutting around. Ooppsy, now that just sounds bad. OK I know this type of lifestyle is dangerous, so I'm trying to cut down on it. On my way to sluttiness recovery too LOL.
Yes, so the theme of my February will be recovery.
As for Tulsy's Y&C month long theme, I've posted a comment on Vincent's Y&C blog post which I thought was geniusly written. Brilliant job Vince ;) OK, I know 'geniusly' is not a real word, but what the heck, I'm young and cute so I can get away with it hee hee hee. *wink wink kiss kiss hug hug*
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Note: Once again, bear in mind that I'm being sarcastic. And for the record, I would never actually admit to being young and cute hehehe :P
I'm kidding. For those of you who don't have a sense of humour, at least you should have some innate sarcasm. Sorry... been watching a little too much of sarcastic American TV lately :P
Things seem to be back in control. Perhaps the whole feeling unwell thing had something to do with the fact that I was actually falling ill. Been having some nasty food poisoning... and I will spare you the details. All I can say is thank god someone invented the sitting toilet. And I don't think I will crave salmon anytime soon.
The bad stuff is still not fully out from my system yet, and my stomach is bloated like crazy. Oh wait... I'm starting to give details that you don't need to hear haha!
Perhaps the whole emotional and stomach meltdown is a sign of some sort. Coz if I wasn't feeling ill over this 4 day long weekend, I could bet my ass that I would have definitely went slutting around. Ooppsy, now that just sounds bad. OK I know this type of lifestyle is dangerous, so I'm trying to cut down on it. On my way to sluttiness recovery too LOL.
Yes, so the theme of my February will be recovery.
As for Tulsy's Y&C month long theme, I've posted a comment on Vincent's Y&C blog post which I thought was geniusly written. Brilliant job Vince ;) OK, I know 'geniusly' is not a real word, but what the heck, I'm young and cute so I can get away with it hee hee hee. *wink wink kiss kiss hug hug*
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Note: Once again, bear in mind that I'm being sarcastic. And for the record, I would never actually admit to being young and cute hehehe :P
Saturday, February 4, 2012
State of Mind
Been having horrible mood swings since Friday. One minute I'm fine and everything is in control and the next I feel like the world is crashing on me or something.
My mind is in a really ugly place right now. Not all the time, but I get these dips in my mood. There is so much frustration combined with anger and disappointment just needing release. And the thing that upsets me most is that the reason I'm upset, the trigger of all of this is so petty and meaningless on the grand scale of life and all..... hence I'm pissed at myself for being pissed at something that's not even worth pissing about.
I feel horrible for not being able to control and calm myself. For a very long time I have taken pride at finally being at peace with myself and enjoying life and not getting stressed so easily or getting too emotional. I think I was doing OK in this department throughout 2011. I really thought that I had matured and grew out of that whole teenage emo, angst phase.
I'm an adult. I need to pull myself together. But sometimes when you experience what seems to be a meltdown, things get out of hand.... beyond my control. And for a control freak like me who likes to take everything into my own hands, I feel terrible for not being able to control my emotions.
My heart aches... not literally, but I feel this tightness in the chest area which is characteristic of a pulled muscle. This happens whenever I get too stressed or upset. And last night I cried for a good couple of minutes. Stupid I know. I haven't cried in self pity for some time.
Right now I feel like throwing things or punching someone or screaming out loud. Maybe all 3 at once.
Apologies for being so frantic. I'm merely typing what I feel >.<
My mind is in a really ugly place right now. Not all the time, but I get these dips in my mood. There is so much frustration combined with anger and disappointment just needing release. And the thing that upsets me most is that the reason I'm upset, the trigger of all of this is so petty and meaningless on the grand scale of life and all..... hence I'm pissed at myself for being pissed at something that's not even worth pissing about.
I feel horrible for not being able to control and calm myself. For a very long time I have taken pride at finally being at peace with myself and enjoying life and not getting stressed so easily or getting too emotional. I think I was doing OK in this department throughout 2011. I really thought that I had matured and grew out of that whole teenage emo, angst phase.
I'm an adult. I need to pull myself together. But sometimes when you experience what seems to be a meltdown, things get out of hand.... beyond my control. And for a control freak like me who likes to take everything into my own hands, I feel terrible for not being able to control my emotions.
My heart aches... not literally, but I feel this tightness in the chest area which is characteristic of a pulled muscle. This happens whenever I get too stressed or upset. And last night I cried for a good couple of minutes. Stupid I know. I haven't cried in self pity for some time.
Right now I feel like throwing things or punching someone or screaming out loud. Maybe all 3 at once.
Apologies for being so frantic. I'm merely typing what I feel >.<
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Raped during CNY
So I guess my new adventurous attitude had landed me in some unexpected trouble on Tuesday.
I know I brought this onto myself, I'm lucky that it didn't reach a dangerous point of compromising safety standards.
Here's what happened....
I went to Mandi-Manda, strolled around the alleys for a bit and stayed at some spots to wait for bait if you know what I mean. After that I proceeded to the dark room since it's the most happening place there.
The last time I was pretty in control. A big group of guys but everyone was well mannered haha and no rough play. This time things got out of hand. I went in, someone came to me and we started touching and all, then another guy joined in. Before I knew it, the 3 of us were sort of 'rolling around' getting deeper and deeper into the dark room which sort of has a long, rectangular shape with walls set up like a maze.
By the time I realized I was pulled so far in it was too late. Pitch black I couldn't see a thing except for the guy right in front of my face. A few more guys started to join in, forming a semi circle and I was at the centre of it with my back against the wall. The guys on the outside were just hugging and molesting whoever that was in front of them, but the 2 guys that were in front of me started to get really aggressive.
I wasn't sure if it was both of them or just one, but one hand was squeezing my dick so hard it was really not enjoyable at all due to the intense pain. I was being hoisted up my feet because I'm quite lightweight, while another hand was finger fucking me so roughly I was like 'Oh my god, this fucking hurts'. The main 'attacker' was strong and quite muscular, needless to say I could not overcome the power being exerted on me. The harder I tried to pull his hand out from my ass, the more he resisted and went deeper. At that moment I was praying that he wouldn't slide his dick up and fuck me bareback.
It was like being raped in public because there were so many guys there but they probably weren't aware that it was against my will. I definitely moaned and screamed in pain, which only seemed to make him enjoy it more =.=
Eventually I made up my mind that enough was enough, so I kicked him in the abdomen using my knee, he moved back a bit, and I used all my strength to push him away on the shoulders using both my hands. It was so damn hard to break free and get out because more and more guys were piling behind, I literally had to force my way out from a sea of men. Thankfully the other guys didn't pull me back.
The attacker wouldn't let go and kept following me on my way out. I stayed near the entrance where he continued to dominate and finger fuck me and suck on my nipples forcefully. But because I was so near to the entrance (much more visibility) and this time it was only 1-on-1, I felt much safer and stood there to 'entertain' him for a while more before I made my way out. Thankfully he didn't come after me.
So this was my first bad experience at a sauna. I know technically that guy isn't a rapist, but I think he was just too aggressive and didn't get the message despite my many attempts to break free.
Lesson learned indeed.
I know I brought this onto myself, I'm lucky that it didn't reach a dangerous point of compromising safety standards.
Here's what happened....
I went to Mandi-Manda, strolled around the alleys for a bit and stayed at some spots to wait for bait if you know what I mean. After that I proceeded to the dark room since it's the most happening place there.
The last time I was pretty in control. A big group of guys but everyone was well mannered haha and no rough play. This time things got out of hand. I went in, someone came to me and we started touching and all, then another guy joined in. Before I knew it, the 3 of us were sort of 'rolling around' getting deeper and deeper into the dark room which sort of has a long, rectangular shape with walls set up like a maze.
By the time I realized I was pulled so far in it was too late. Pitch black I couldn't see a thing except for the guy right in front of my face. A few more guys started to join in, forming a semi circle and I was at the centre of it with my back against the wall. The guys on the outside were just hugging and molesting whoever that was in front of them, but the 2 guys that were in front of me started to get really aggressive.
I wasn't sure if it was both of them or just one, but one hand was squeezing my dick so hard it was really not enjoyable at all due to the intense pain. I was being hoisted up my feet because I'm quite lightweight, while another hand was finger fucking me so roughly I was like 'Oh my god, this fucking hurts'. The main 'attacker' was strong and quite muscular, needless to say I could not overcome the power being exerted on me. The harder I tried to pull his hand out from my ass, the more he resisted and went deeper. At that moment I was praying that he wouldn't slide his dick up and fuck me bareback.
It was like being raped in public because there were so many guys there but they probably weren't aware that it was against my will. I definitely moaned and screamed in pain, which only seemed to make him enjoy it more =.=
Eventually I made up my mind that enough was enough, so I kicked him in the abdomen using my knee, he moved back a bit, and I used all my strength to push him away on the shoulders using both my hands. It was so damn hard to break free and get out because more and more guys were piling behind, I literally had to force my way out from a sea of men. Thankfully the other guys didn't pull me back.
The attacker wouldn't let go and kept following me on my way out. I stayed near the entrance where he continued to dominate and finger fuck me and suck on my nipples forcefully. But because I was so near to the entrance (much more visibility) and this time it was only 1-on-1, I felt much safer and stood there to 'entertain' him for a while more before I made my way out. Thankfully he didn't come after me.
So this was my first bad experience at a sauna. I know technically that guy isn't a rapist, but I think he was just too aggressive and didn't get the message despite my many attempts to break free.
Lesson learned indeed.
Saturday, January 21, 2012
New Sauna Adventure
Since it's a new year, I want to widen my horizon and be more adventurous.
After frequenting Studio 89 since last year, it was beginning to get dull. The layout was already all too familiar, even the guys don't seem to stand out that much LOL. Thus I decided to venture beyond PJ, in hopes that other locations will bring more steamy, memorable encounters.
You would be surprised with the number of PLU spots in the Klang Valley... some might even be in busy districts with lots of people and traffic. What amazes me is that these locations are so well hidden yet in plain sight. If you walk past the entrance along the row of shoplots, you would never know that just upstairs or on the other side of that wall, a ton of guys are groping and fucking each other.
I guess that's what makes it so exciting to visit a sauna. The heart beats fast just as you park your car and make your way to the entrance. It's a mixture of excitement and nerves when you successfully locate the place! So exciting when you step in for the first time not knowing about the layout and what to expect!!
For those innocent little birdies who are clueless, you can check out these sites which list the places:
http://www.utopia-asia.com/klsaun.htm
http://www.gaygetter.com/g4/g/malaysia/saunas
Long story short, I visited Mandi Manda at Taman Desa, KL. I chose this because it is considered nearer and more familiar to me than the other ones in city centre or Cheras. You can check out their website http://www.mandimanda.com/
So here's a short J-boy review.
First impression, the place is definitely bigger and looks classier than Studio 89, but the entrance fee is higher at RM20 on weekdays (Studio 89 is RM10 for Gen-Y) and RM25 on weekends (RM15 at Studio 89 for Gen-Y). But get this, now Mandi Manda has a promo whereby those below 24 can enter for FREE on weekends haha! So I recommend going to Mandi Manda on weekends, and going to Studio 89 on Wednesday for FREE too if you are below 24! The advantages of being young hehe :P
Back to the review. Ermm they have a cafeteria and gym too, though I think most guys don't go there to eat or pump iron LOL. The main attraction would be an area on the 1st floor which they call 'Level 69'. Basically this is where the dark room maze and private rooms are. And you MUST leave your towel outside before entering hehehe.
In terms of crowd, I went on Saturday evening and spotted quite a handful of yummy hot young guys! Definitely different faces than those in Studio 89 so it's a refreshing change for me ;) The guys here like to crowd in the dark room and have a massive grope fest. If you go in there, you will most certainly be grabbed because the area is narrow and guys are just lining against both sides of the wall waiting to molest you haha!
Another highlight is the spacious locker with a separate section to put your shoes, and plenty of shower stalls. Also they give a big towel unlike Studio 89. But one thing I dislike is how the sauna is so far from the Level 69.
Studio 89 is small, compact but more intimate in a way, and I like that they have a TV room that airs only PORN haha! Mandi Manda actually has a TV room near the cafeteria which airs StarWorld LOL.
OK I should stop, or else this review will get too long.
Anyone been to any other saunas that I should definitely go visit? I'm wild and up to anything :P
After frequenting Studio 89 since last year, it was beginning to get dull. The layout was already all too familiar, even the guys don't seem to stand out that much LOL. Thus I decided to venture beyond PJ, in hopes that other locations will bring more steamy, memorable encounters.
You would be surprised with the number of PLU spots in the Klang Valley... some might even be in busy districts with lots of people and traffic. What amazes me is that these locations are so well hidden yet in plain sight. If you walk past the entrance along the row of shoplots, you would never know that just upstairs or on the other side of that wall, a ton of guys are groping and fucking each other.
I guess that's what makes it so exciting to visit a sauna. The heart beats fast just as you park your car and make your way to the entrance. It's a mixture of excitement and nerves when you successfully locate the place! So exciting when you step in for the first time not knowing about the layout and what to expect!!
For those innocent little birdies who are clueless, you can check out these sites which list the places:
http://www.utopia-asia.com/klsaun.htm
http://www.gaygetter.com/g4/g/malaysia/saunas
Long story short, I visited Mandi Manda at Taman Desa, KL. I chose this because it is considered nearer and more familiar to me than the other ones in city centre or Cheras. You can check out their website http://www.mandimanda.com/
So here's a short J-boy review.
First impression, the place is definitely bigger and looks classier than Studio 89, but the entrance fee is higher at RM20 on weekdays (Studio 89 is RM10 for Gen-Y) and RM25 on weekends (RM15 at Studio 89 for Gen-Y). But get this, now Mandi Manda has a promo whereby those below 24 can enter for FREE on weekends haha! So I recommend going to Mandi Manda on weekends, and going to Studio 89 on Wednesday for FREE too if you are below 24! The advantages of being young hehe :P
Back to the review. Ermm they have a cafeteria and gym too, though I think most guys don't go there to eat or pump iron LOL. The main attraction would be an area on the 1st floor which they call 'Level 69'. Basically this is where the dark room maze and private rooms are. And you MUST leave your towel outside before entering hehehe.
In terms of crowd, I went on Saturday evening and spotted quite a handful of yummy hot young guys! Definitely different faces than those in Studio 89 so it's a refreshing change for me ;) The guys here like to crowd in the dark room and have a massive grope fest. If you go in there, you will most certainly be grabbed because the area is narrow and guys are just lining against both sides of the wall waiting to molest you haha!
Another highlight is the spacious locker with a separate section to put your shoes, and plenty of shower stalls. Also they give a big towel unlike Studio 89. But one thing I dislike is how the sauna is so far from the Level 69.
Studio 89 is small, compact but more intimate in a way, and I like that they have a TV room that airs only PORN haha! Mandi Manda actually has a TV room near the cafeteria which airs StarWorld LOL.
OK I should stop, or else this review will get too long.
Anyone been to any other saunas that I should definitely go visit? I'm wild and up to anything :P
Saturday, January 14, 2012
It's a Biological Need
I know I'll probably be disliked or branded as a slut for saying this, but I have to say sex really has become a biological need for me.
If you think about it, it's the same reason why we masturbate right? A very natural urge triggers us to perform certain activities regularly in order to acquire a periodic release accompanied with satisfaction and relief.
Perhaps some of us will refrain from participating in casual get togethers because of the perceived risks (which are very real, actually), and then there is the moral aspect of it which I totally respect which some of you feel so strongly about. Some feel that sex is an act of expressing love and should only be intended with the person you love/care about.
Personally, I have reached a point where I'm able to distinguish and separate the act of having sex with feelings/emotions. To me, having sex sort of has the same purpose as jacking off... to achieve satisfaction through physical pleasure... only I think sex is so much more fun than doing it solo haha!
I mean how do you stop? Once you have tasted it, how can you stop wanting it? It's just like ice cream. After having it once, the satisfaction of eating ice cream (the taste, the texture, etc) will forever be programmed into your mind. And if it occurs between 2 consenting adults who want to do it for the sole purpose of doing it, then what's the crime here right? Of course playing safe is of utmost priority. Obviously one needs to be informed about the necessary precautions and safety measures.
Maybe my brain is wired differently than a sound minded being.
I can live without a man, a lover, but I don't think I can live without sex. The mind and body seems to be united in need of it.
And if you're wondering why I'm writing this, it's because lately I'm feeling the unquenchable thirst for dick. LOL.
If you think about it, it's the same reason why we masturbate right? A very natural urge triggers us to perform certain activities regularly in order to acquire a periodic release accompanied with satisfaction and relief.
Perhaps some of us will refrain from participating in casual get togethers because of the perceived risks (which are very real, actually), and then there is the moral aspect of it which I totally respect which some of you feel so strongly about. Some feel that sex is an act of expressing love and should only be intended with the person you love/care about.
Personally, I have reached a point where I'm able to distinguish and separate the act of having sex with feelings/emotions. To me, having sex sort of has the same purpose as jacking off... to achieve satisfaction through physical pleasure... only I think sex is so much more fun than doing it solo haha!
I mean how do you stop? Once you have tasted it, how can you stop wanting it? It's just like ice cream. After having it once, the satisfaction of eating ice cream (the taste, the texture, etc) will forever be programmed into your mind. And if it occurs between 2 consenting adults who want to do it for the sole purpose of doing it, then what's the crime here right? Of course playing safe is of utmost priority. Obviously one needs to be informed about the necessary precautions and safety measures.
Maybe my brain is wired differently than a sound minded being.
I can live without a man, a lover, but I don't think I can live without sex. The mind and body seems to be united in need of it.
And if you're wondering why I'm writing this, it's because lately I'm feeling the unquenchable thirst for dick. LOL.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Update :)
Happy New Year everyone!
I know this wish is coming a little late, but I've been quite busy this week...
Since Christmas there has been many gatherings and makan outings with family and friends.
Really blessed with good food and company, but I'm starting to feel my tummy getting bigger! Need to go gym more often togap zhai work out haha :P
2012 promises to be an exciting year.. with my graduation expected to come, and that means I can take some time off after that to have some fun hehehe :)
In 2011 I did take bigger steps into the plu circle... going to the sauna for the first time, doing all kinds of things I thought I would never do, and also getting to know some bloggers better, and even meeting some haha!
So now that my body and mind has been fully liberated, I foresee I'm gonna do more of everything this year. I think 2012 is gonna be sexy... just has that vibe to it. Maybe I should date someone and be less single minded. I don't know. See how it goes... ;)
Hope you all have a sexy 2012 too!!
XOXO
I know this wish is coming a little late, but I've been quite busy this week...
Since Christmas there has been many gatherings and makan outings with family and friends.
Really blessed with good food and company, but I'm starting to feel my tummy getting bigger! Need to go gym more often to
2012 promises to be an exciting year.. with my graduation expected to come, and that means I can take some time off after that to have some fun hehehe :)
In 2011 I did take bigger steps into the plu circle... going to the sauna for the first time, doing all kinds of things I thought I would never do, and also getting to know some bloggers better, and even meeting some haha!
So now that my body and mind has been fully liberated, I foresee I'm gonna do more of everything this year. I think 2012 is gonna be sexy... just has that vibe to it. Maybe I should date someone and be less single minded. I don't know. See how it goes... ;)
Hope you all have a sexy 2012 too!!
XOXO
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