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Saturday, July 31, 2010

Confusion

Recent posts about bisexuality as well as roles (top/bottom/versatile) from fellow bloggers has been really interesting to read. Got me thinking a lot. To the extent of being confused.

Things I thought I knew turned out to be so much more complicated. So many things I never considered before. It's good in a way. This process will help me understand myself better. I just need to figure it out.

Recently I have been feeling extra lonely. I always feel like that when I have a crush on someone. Craving for his love, but knowing that you won't get it sucks.

I actually prefer the times when I'm happily single and not eyeing anyone. You feel strong and independent, like you don't need a man. Yes I would still be hungry for men but at least I won't feel lonely and weak. It would be more to hot, desperate & sexy haha.

Oh man my feelings for Eric is getting stronger by the day. It's ridiculous how fast I fall in love. I want him so badly. I can't stop picturing the image of us cuddling together while watching a scary movie, how it would feel to have his arms around me...............


God, I should get some sleep.

7 comments:

  1. Hmm, is this Eric u talking about from iamwhoiam.blogspot aka Pluboy?

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  2. oh boy.

    i m experiencing the totally same thing as you.

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  3. Yes, you can be a happy single without eyeing anymore...but how long can this last? You can't be single forever. Everyone will go thru this stage..but take it naturally....like to read more about Eric.

    @Beyond, haha, you mean Takashi, oh..oh....

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  4. haha definitely not that Eric!
    I have not met him (Takashi) in real life :P

    this is a Eric from my uni..

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  5. @Lucifer: we are like twins!

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  6. Don't think too much, then you won't be confused. Problem solved! ;p Life can be as simple as you want it to be.

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