Hot Guy Lures You In, Then Leaves You Hanging

The title says it all.

I hate people like that. Like dude, if you're gonna initiate a conversation with me and get me all excited, then don't leave me hanging there for absolutely no reason like an idiot.

It doesn't help that this guy is from America, and he's Latino. And FUCKING hot. Like the kind you see on TV LOL. He says he got transferred here for work, and after sending me his private pictures I can assume the pictures are genuinely him. He's probably way out of my league, but he initiated a conversation with me, and showed interest in meeting. I'm already being super nice and friendly.

But I just can't stand people who lure you in, and then play hot and cold. He takes over a day to reply a single message, and the responses are like short and inconclusive. But he says he likes me, it's not like he's not interested. I know it's supposed to be casual, but heck don't leave me high and dry you son of a bitch. Makes me wonder if you're seeing like 100 other guys or just way too busy with whatever "work" you do.

I admit it is your physical package that got my attention, and now that you have it, I feel like a desperate, clingy slut. You're so mysterious and reserved, I feel like there's something totally not right about this. And yet I still wanna give it a shot because my dick gets hard the moment I think about you LOL.

I'm like looking at my phone every so often just to see if you've replied. That's just desperado ultimato hahaha. Arghhhh why can't I just fall for decent gay guys hahahaha XD

XOXO
Where's my cupid?

Man Hungry!!

You know you're man hungry when you get turned on by just about anyone with a rod between his legs! It's either that, or guys around me seem to be more attractive than usual hahaha!

This is just absurd..... not sure what's wrong with me, but lately I seem to be extra lustful... it's like a bee surrounded by a honey buffet kinda thing, everywhere I turn it's just yummy chest and arms galore and I just want to drop my pants and hop on to the next stick.........

I can't even put it in the right words to describe what's going on with me haha... maybe it's hormonal or environmental :S

The gym is where all the honey gathers haha! Guys that I didn't really notice before suddenly seem so much sexier....... Like today, this guy who I'm pretty sure is gay but not my type...... I noticed his body has gotten a lot buffer, and it just so happens I walked into the locker room when he stripped completely naked haha... Today is a weekend, so not many people working out, so I guess he thought it would be alright to strip naked quickly before covering up in towel..... So I caught a quick glimpse of his junk, and he saw me and got so self conscious haha.... I totally enjoyed that moment :P

And then there's this other guy, who's tall and kinda young and cool looking, I kind of felt like he was staring at me the other day..... it was quite cute, we first caught each other's eyes in the locker room, then we both went to pee at the same time. I went to the treadmills, he and his friend then went on to the treadmill next to mine..... I kind of felt in the corner of my eye that he was corner-eyeing me too haha, but you guys will probably say it's all in my head, and this time I'm totally with you... I probably imagined it haha..... But later when I was working out at the weight machines, he stood quite close to me in between his sets when he was resting, so I'm not sure if that means anything ;)

OK I think when you're horny you get overly excited way too easily and start to imagine and fantasize about all kinds of shit..........

I don't even know why I'm writing this hahaha..... just to say I'm horny LOL!!!!! Pardon my vulgarity.... it's seasonal, probably :P

XOXO
Get me a man please

Valentine's

Happy V-day & C.G.M. to all you annoying lovebirds out there haha ;)

Anyone knows anyone who's gonna throw Mandarin oranges into the lake? Is that still a thing? Is it supposed to be banana for guys? Is there like a gay code / version? Maybe throwing eggplants into the lake..... but the skin is so dark I would have to write my number using liquid paper hahaha :P

OK that was random.................... I'm not that despo, don't worry haha.. ha...... ha............

To all the single peeps out there, don't worry you're not alone.... To look on the bright side, to us, this day is just like any other day. It's just being surrounded by mushy shit and heart themed stuff all over the place as a constant reminder that we have no reason to do anything special today. Yeah, we will survive hahaha..

On another note, I've been noticing so many hot guys at the gym lately... muscle-y and young, drooling hot bods... some even behave and dress a little gay or have like an ear ring, which really messes up my gaydar, because they appear kind of gay, but then I remind myself of my history and lessons learned... If a guy looks too good to be true (one of us, a.k.a. gay), then he probably is (straight). True story.


Here's to yet another solo Valentine's,
XOXO
The sulking bitter gourd :P

Sauna Day

Didn't think I could stay away that long haha... konon-nya want to change my ways, though I don't see the harm in the occasional visit (adhering to the Golden safety rules of course!) considering my dating life is dry as the Sahara...

Haven't been since the raids happened last November, so you can say I'm rusty. Thank goodness my mojo magically returned the moment I stepped into the zone. Not sure if I should be happy or sad to say it felt comforting to be back.... just to be in the presence of like minded people, not to mention the crowd today was HOT! You feel at ease, and naturally slutty ;)

The one major thing I noticed that has changed since my first visits bout 2 years ago.... younger boys are showing up, which basically means I'm getting old :O hahaha... Nice to see those young slim, clueless chaps wandering around like Bambi while I stroll & pose like a seasoned pro :P

I'm not into the young, twinky boys so my landscape becomes kind of reduced. The ones I like, the older, hunkier ones, become the guys that get all the attention and are chased around like bees to honey.... Competition is pretty strong these days, if you see a guy you like and hesitate to make a move, next thing you know some slutty brave horny soul will beat you to it and off they go into a private room.... Mehhhhh

That was what happened today! The crowd was damn fine, seriously I don't remember the guys being like that LOL.... it really depends on your luck, some days it's like striking the jackpot, and sometimes it gets pretty shitty depressing.

The funny thing today is that I had my eye on 2 guys, I haven't even decided on which one to go for.. The cute-hot slimmer one (who was kinda like me) was making some eye contact and staying close to me, while the other hunkier hottie with curly Korean hairstyle (not really Korean) was just moving around scanning the place... Before I could make a move, 2 random guys started exhibiting in the maze, kissing & sucking openly, attracting an audience around them. Rare to see hot guys with full hard ons just putting on a show for everyone...  I was watching nearby, then the hunky Korean hair guy suddenly walked in and joined them with a full hard on. Damn his chest was yummy! The slimmer guy was also watching nearby... Not long after, the show dispersed and Korean hair guy moved deeper into the dark area, obviously there was a bunch of guys tailing him, including Slimmer guy. I quickly followed behind to see how things develop, but it didn't take long for Korean hair guy and Slimmer guy to catch each others' eye, they were holding hands and walking into the private room.... still a bunch of guys were following behind until they shut the door LOL.... And I was like damnnnnn!!! I should have made a move, or boldly ask if they wanted a 3rd wheel LOL!

Not long after, Korean hair guy came out with Slimmer guy, they went out to get condom and lube, before heading back in. There were some very loud noises emitting from the room, it turned me ON so badly haha! Later I saw Korean hair guy leaving, but Slimmer guy was still hanging around in the maze... not sure if they both got the ending they wanted haha... Seriously they are both so good looking and so my type, it was like watching live porn :P

As for me, I was glad that I still got decent attention, obviously not as much as those two, but I would consider it a win considering the quality of the crowd :)

I think I'm at a place where I feel good enough about myself to not need to frequent these places regularly... this was just a quick fix. I used to get so attached to saunas, but now I'm glad I don't feel the urge to come back so soon..

I'm definitely searching for decent dates, and lately Jack'd hasn't been too bad! It's rare to have decent conversations on apps these days, but I just made a new hot friend today. The only catch is, he's a pure bottom haha!! At least that means we can just chat and be friends :P

2014 looks better already,
XOXO

Giveaways

Nope. Sorry not giving out freebies here haha. I meant the other 'giveaway', like something about you that gives you away to someone else about something. OK wow I suck at defining things haha!

Sudden urge to blog since I'm on MC today after eating some bad food (that would be a nice way of describing what I went through over the long weekend).

I guess the consolation would be sighting this really hot-handsome guy at a Chinese restaurant over dinner with family. He was at the next table, and my seat was positioned to give me a direct view of him :)

The first thing that went through my mind: He's gay. Like a thousand percent. Like it's so obvious you would have to be blind to miss it. But despite the striking gay-ness, he still has the ability to come across as macho and charming, if you know what I mean. Otherwise I wouldn't even be attracted. It's like the... very refined, urban male, but not crossing the line of being bitchy or feminine. We were in Bangsar after all.

Now what is it about him that compelled me to write an entire post......... He's very different from Joe. So the appeal is completely different, yet I was attracted.... lately people ask me 'what's my type?' I think I'm beginning to be able to define my 'type' better the more I know myself, which is quite surprising.

For the fun of it, let's do a Joe vs Urban Guy comparison (almost wanted to make a Microsoft Word table but too lazy):
Build - Joe: Muscular hunk; Urban Guy: Toned arms but not hunky, gyms
Height - About the same, both taller than me by a head
Skin - Joe: Dark & tanned; Urban Guy: Smooth & fair
Dress sense: Joe: casual T-shirt guy; Urban Guy: label wearing guy, good taste
Hair style: Joe: No hair. Shaved head LOL; Urban Guy: Fancy, with shaved sides & neatly gelled & styled at the top
Mannerism/Personality: Joe: down to Earth, quietly sexy; Urban Guy: live of the party, outspoken
Imagined Occupation: Joe: Marine/Fire Fighter; Urban Guy: Suit-wearing seducer exec

As you can see, very different, but both I like :P

Urban guy, he's... very good looking, like Singaporean lengzhai type. He was talking and laughing loudly with his family. It's the combination of hair, dressing, looks, way of interacting with other people that gives him away as gay. Not entirely queer but queer enough. Sorry it took so long to get to my point haha. But the ultimate giveaway? He was wearing a tight A&F T-shirt. Now I know you guys will say that's a generalization, but trust me, with all the other factors combined, he's gay. Besides, no straight guy in his right mind would spend so outrageously on the most basic looking T-shirt. Heck, even I won't buy one hahahahaha. So far, ALL the guys that I have seen sporting an A&F shirt ticks off my radar. GIVEAWAY.    

The only question I had in mind, not on his sexuality, but whether his family, who were all seated at the table, had any inclination of what I, as a stranger, had just detected in a minute of seeing him. GIVEAWAY. OK now I'm just trying to enforce that word haha.

Halfway typing this post (while listening to Your Body) I had a greater realization. By comparing Joe and Urban Guy, it kind of puts Joe's sexuality more into perspective. Like when you see an apple you don't really think it's that round, but when you put it next to a pear, then you realize the apple really IS round. So I guess I need to see more clearly next time to avoid falling for straight guys again.
Or the other lesson from this encounter is that, maybe I should go for guys that are more like Urban Guy. Still has what it takes to make my heart skip a beat by being macho enough, while having a higher probability of being one of us with all the urban-ness and erm A&F shirts haha!!

P.S. Oh crap, forgot to mention some other stuff! Like how I wasn't able to get a photo of him because I was with family, and my spy shooting skills are not as refined as William or tuls. And yes, I did want to confirm my theory by turning on Grindr & Jackd, but my stupid GPS wouldn't update my location hahaha!! *modern day problems*

I enjoyed writing this one,
XOXO

New Year, New Jockstrap!

Hahaha to celebrate the new year, I bought my first ever pair of jockstraps! It's the Renoma X-treme Sport - Sport Strap series. As the name says, it has that sporty mesh and feel :P

http://www.ebay.com/itm/Renoma-2-Pcs-X-Treme-Sport-Strap-REY-332-Size-S-M-L-XL-/380798752008

You can find this in major department stores like Parkson and Tangs.

Felt so sexy putting it on. It was more comfortable than I expected. The back feels so airy hahaha because it's completely exposed. A new sensation indeed.

Leonut asked who am I going to wear it for? I guess the only rational answer is for my future date or bf haha. Kinky sex is expected!

Jockstraps aren't really practical to wear out though. Imagine going out to dinner or hanging out with friends in these. The butt would feel a little..... exposed right? XD

Will reserve it for special occasions ;)

Happy 2014 peeps!

XOXO

It's December

Wait, what... it's December already? Half a month left and then it's goodbye to 2013. I've never really been good with endings. Feeling all nostalgic and thinking too much, reflecting and all.

December has always been my favorite month of the year, probably because it's all festive and Christmas-y haha... and when you're a student it's sem break, honestly the best time to chill, party and hang out with friends and going on vacation. Have already met up with some friends lately who are back in town, but there are still a number of people I wanna catch up with (including bloggers) before 2014!!

Working definitely makes December less fun.... though I can't complain about the contractual bonus that's coming my way haha! Haven't done any Christmas shopping yet... This year it's going to be a quiet affair, with my parents being overseas, so it's just with my siblings... No plans yet. Kind of takes the mood away :(

I spent a bulk of this year falling hopelessly for someone that isn't even worth the time. I don't feel like I've achieved much.... Work wise it's been steady, I have learned new things and I guess I should feel good that there's still plenty to learn and experience in my current company.... so no plans to jump to another boat soon. Health wise, well I guess this year I actually see my body change a little, finally gaining some mass but lately the growth seems to have stopped. Maybe I need to push myself even harder and eat more protein LOL. More importantly, I hope I can stay healthy and not let my past illnesses trouble me too much in the future. 

Despite things going well with my career and everything's peaceful with family, I can't help but feel empty. Like it's all so routine and nothing more. Maybe every person who has just transitioned from student to employee feels like that. A stagnant lifestyle. Not much surprises... it might not be a bad thing, but I guess I'm looking for something else.

Feeling a little shitty because a family trip that was planned for January, and already booked and paid for, but due to a sudden twist of events led to it being "cancelled", or at least not all of us gets to go. I probably have to stay behind. The reason is a really shitty one, makes me feel disappointed and let down, but things are beyond my control. I just have to accept it.   

I'm still trying to look out for potential dates, but it's either no one's interested in me, or I'm not interested in the people that are. Constantly reminding myself not to be desperate hahaha... I do wanna go out more and just hang out with more guys... What scares me the most is that I might actually be getting a little too comfortable with being on my own, that I will start turning away every single person that comes my way :/  

This is such boring post, honestly I'm writing now just because I have nothing else to do LOL. The blogosphere has become kind of dead.... Thank you for still giving me a read!

Have a great holiday season everyone!
XOXO