I Have Decided

Thanks guys for your support.

I don't have much experience when it comes to love and relationships, so listening to more opinions definitely helped me digest the situation in a more rational and sensible manner.

I know I may come across as naive, incapable of independent thought and selfish. Sometimes I get caught up with things related to me only, I forget the bigger picture. When I really had time to think about this, I realized it's actually not that big of a deal. So what if it doesn't work out, there are still things to look forward to in life besides seeking a lover. In retrospect there really wasn't a need for me to get so upset and emotional about this incident.

Well, after much consideration, we talked and decided to get back together for now. Like some of you said, I should cherish this relationship as it happens and not worry about the future because the uncertainty is just too great for anyone to predict.

Some of you may think this is a stupid decision, one that is made out of impulse. Well I just don't feel like letting go now. I'm aware of what I'm getting into, so I think that does make a difference, because even if it doesn't end well, I would have been better prepared for it. Like cushioning a fall. This is a shot at love, I just wanna grab the opportunity and experience it without fear. Should the journey end eventually, at least I can say I got to experience it. It won't go to waste coz life is about experiencing rite :)

So that's my current stand. Not sure if it will last, so we'll just have to see how it goes alright! Anger, frustration, doubt, sadness and regret take too much energy and effort. I know I sound so innocent and ridiculous, like a character out of a cheesy Disney fairy tale, but I just wanna live life and be happy hahaha!

Suck on that if you don't like it :D