Cold Feet?

'Someone call a doctor, got a case of a love bi-polar. Stuck on a roller coaster, can't get off this ride...'

I should have known this would happen.
I'm emotionally incapable of love. It's in my genetics.
I'm now the bi-polar bitch. When I don't have someone, a relationship is all that I want. Now that I have someone, I find myself having second thoughts.

Is it like that for any of you?

I repulse people who care about me, possibly out of fear for commitment. I don't deserve someone's love because I think it's unfair for them as I cannot love back equally. It's like a mental block.

Dear if you're reading this, I'm sorry. I assure you this is not your fault, the problem is me.
The nicer you are to me, the greater the remorse I feel.
And since we have been entirely honest to each other, I think you should know how I feel.
I know we are already taking things slow, but all of this is still new territory for me.
I do like you and your company, but I guess I need time alone.

See I told you guys I was a loner. And I'm not a typical romantic, sweet lovey guy.
Hot and Cold. Go figure.