This Joe thing is just leaving me horribly empty on the inside.
Things were getting better. Saw him on Tuesday. Saw him today. I no longer feel so strongly about him because I'm already sensing that he feels impartial/neutral about me. He no longer looks at me. He's just another guy at the gym. A very attractive guy in my eyes.
I'm starting to get over him, though its a day by day thing. My feelings for him oscillates, one moment I feel like I'm recovering, the next I sorely miss him.
Either way, the only word I can think of to describe how I feel is EMPTINESS.
Hollow on the inside. I'm neither happy nor upset. Just empty. Empty.
At least I'm finally starting to move on......... just need to get through this phase.
I think I see a little light at the end, though it's still a distance away.
Right now I'm surrounded by darkness. Can't see clearly. Can't hear a thing.
It sucks to be here.
Just need to keep walking....
XOXO
You'll get thru this!! I'm very sure!! Keep walking!! (:
ReplyDeletethanks for the support :)
Deletegay relationship walk in tunnel very scary one, cannot come out and you will get lost one...
ReplyDeletein straight relationship, walk in tunnel is the quest, once you see a pretty girl in a house you have to ask her to open the door and invite you in, if she opens up, you are lucky lor, if you dont, you will die like the other gays...
the only way to get out of the tunnel is to squeeeeeeeeeeze the butt will full force and it will shoot out pooooooooooooooooot! lol
hahahahaha you always have a humorous way of saying things
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I will squeeze hard hahahaha :P
Yeah!!! These feeling do suck. Well at least you are already recovering. Take care and do be among friends.
ReplyDeleteYeah, the early part of recovery is the toughest, but at least that means I'm moving forward! :)
DeleteHmm, I think you need to go get yourself "serviced".
ReplyDeleteHehe.
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AGREED ;)
Deletethat emptiness within need to be filled in...
ReplyDeletehaha not sure what you mean by filling in... whether you're referring to sex or you mean filling the heart :P
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