Experience Matters!

*This post is about sex. Leave now if you don't want to read the details*

I just had the best damn sex of my life.
I'm not even bragging because I wasn't the one who was amazing.. I was just 'being there' and letting him work his magic.

A word of advice to all my fellow bottoms out there, if you had a choice, pick the man with the experience, as this criteria should come before looks if you are just looking for fun. It makes ALL the difference in the world!! Then again, you wouldn't know if someone has experience until you actually try him out. I guess a generalization is that older guys know their way around better.

Despite the 11 year age gap (which I only found out after) he was quite the charmer. I mean if there was no physical attraction, two people wouldn't end up naked together anyway right? It was also the longest member I have ever had up my ass. He said it was 7', I didn't have a measuring tape but it looked quite about right.

Was so hesitant to do it because it was so large and I worried about the pain. But he assured me that he knew what he was doing and would go slow and gentle. This guy was a pro. He was also the best blowjob giver I have ever encountered (even better than me LOL), there was no feeling of teeth at all and the suction and firmness of the grip was just right. It's rare for a top right, since they normally receive more than they give, so their blowing skills tend to be a bit unpolished. And my god, the rimming was so enjoyable because he knew his way around so damn well.

I think the technique to not feel pain during the actual sex is the buildup. I wasn't really sure what he was doing because I wasn't looking, but I think you need to work your way slowly to loosen the 'hole' right? After rimming, put some lube and start with 1 finger, work it in slowly, leave it there for a while, let the contraction push it out on its own, then more lube, progress to 2 or 3 fingers I think.. and so on. This is where the skill comes in. The muscles in the butt will sort of get used to having something there slowly. This part was actually the most painful. When it came to the actual penetration, I was surprised that it was smoother than my previous experiences.

Once it was IN, it was just PURE PLEASURE. I didn't feel the pain of wanting to 'push' it out. The body sort of accepted that something was inside me. In fact it was so good I asked him to thrust harder and deeper because my body wasn't in pain. It was like the good type of pain. And he said he could feel my G-spot, I'm not sure what exactly is the G-spot in the male body, but hell yeah it felt good.

Another amazing thing was that we actually changed positions while he was still penetrated in me!!! One moment I was lying on my back with legs in the air, and the next I was sitting on top of him while he was laying down. It was like doing yoga hahaha, I was so worried that I would break his cock, but yeah he knew what he was doing and guided me on how I should move and put my legs. It was really like a class where I learned new things LOL.

Isn't this exactly what you look for in a top? Someone who knows what to do and is gentle enough to not push you too hard. He said it was as important for me to enjoy it as much as he did.

This was also the first time I exchanged numbers with a stranger. The experience was so good, I wasn't ready to walk away from him and wonder if I'll ever see him again. Btw, he's half Thai, so the exotic factor makes it that much sexier!

You can roll your eyes all you want. I know casual sex lacks emotion and it can't compare to making love, but right now I'm happy being single and my body just craves this sort of physical activity. It's all that it is. I'm not in a relationship so it's not cheating. And I don't want or need to feel passionate about someone. I don't really care for the 'feelings' right now. So yeah, sex seems like a good deal for me now.

PMS-ing Bitch

If there's one thing I don't understand, it's women.
In a way, I pity straight men because they will never truly understand their girlfriends/wives, no matter how much they love them or try to... simply because they don't have a vagina. Now isn't this a good reason to be gay hahahaha? 

Had a showdown with a bitch recently.
It was probably that time of the month (for her I mean, not me!), she was nuts, walking in with a pissed off expression, and exuding an attitude that one can only describe as 'bitchy'. She was attacking everyone with unkind words, and once I got sufficiently agitated  I started using some colourful words of my own. It's a defensive mechanism. Oh btw, this bitch was my lecturer. That day didn't end well for anyone.

What does PMS does to a person anyway? Do you really feel a difference in your body? Does it really give you an excuse to go berserk all of a sudden? How does menstruation feel like? I can only wonder...

I know I'm a bitch, but I'm not a woman, so I can never really be that kind of bitch if you know what I mean. Somehow men are not supposed to throw tantrums or be bitchy about petty things, because it's "frowned upon" and people will roll their eyes. Men are perceived to be rough and generally not care about as many things, or at least not express our emotions as outwardly as women even if we feel something.

It's bullshit right. All the stereotyping and stuff.
But still, I think women shouldn't be allowed to get away for being as bitchy as they are, not when men are not allowed to do the same...

LMFAO Hard On!!

Ahahahahahahaha I feel so darn stupid and embarrassed for saying this, but I actually got a hard on when I first saw this video, which began at 0:57 when he took his pants off!! wiggle wiggle wiggle XD

I always thought LMFAO was annoying when the radio and MTV kept playing 'Party Rock Anthem'.
But after watching this video, I actually think he is sexy, in a nerdy kind of way hahaha.

BTW this video is so gay... LOL... WATCH IT! :P

Move, Moving, Gone

Until today, I'm still amazed at how the human heart is able to move on... rather quickly in fact. That's how we are able to survive I guess.

It's kind of cold in a way. Sometimes I genuinely feel like I will never be able to love someone forever and always, it's just not within my capacity. I get sick of someone whenever I spend too much time with them. And remember the guy, that junior that I was so crazy about just a month or so ago? Well, now I feel nothing at all... not even when I run into him. Numb. And this goes for all the crushes that I have had. I don't feel anything for them anymore.

This is why I don't want a relationship, because I know I won't last. And it pisses me off when I chat with guys online, and they ask me why are you still single? Why don't you look for a boyfriend? My reply will often be 'Why must I have a boyfriend? I don't want a boyfriend just to have a boyfriend, just because everyone else wants or have a boyfriend'.

I don't know the purpose actually. I don't really need the physical or emotional support from a lover, I'm fairly independent, and can always turn to family or friends when I need a pick-me-up. Do you get a boyfriend for the sex? Well, I certainly don't need a boyfriend for that, LOL.. been getting plenty lately.. to the point that I feel like a dirty, horrible slut. But that's not the point of this post :P

Do you want a boyfriend for the company and to share your life with? To fill the loneliness? OK this is maybe a better reason... but I feel that if a relationship was formed based on the sake of company, then for sure it won't last, because eventually you will be bored of that person, and seek someone else that's more exciting to fill the gap right?

So why do you want / have a boyfriend?
Can someone please enlighten me...

The Licker

Recently I had a really interesting encounter...

I know different guys like to do different things, and certain things which may turn one guy on might not be so appealing to another. I get it. We are all different.
But some things are so twisted, it makes me wonder where it comes from or how it developed...

I'm sure everyone is familiar with the use of tongue when engaging in you-know-what right.. For kissing, blowing. But other than that...

OK first thing.. I may have mentioned this before, but what is it with guys and this NIPPLE obsession?? Almost all guys I've been with want their nipples to be sucked or even bitten and pulled. Isn't it a bit aggressive to chew on someone's nipple? I don't want to bite off any part of your tit for heaven's sake. I don't understand why this is such a turn on.

The nipple thing is not that bad, since I'm starting to accept it as so many people are into it. 

But some other things are so unhygienic it's kind of gross. For example, my recent experience of being licked all over, yes... ANY part that you can think of.

ARMPITS - Imagine a guy who doesn't shave his underarms and has been sweating the whole day... then the other guy goes on and lick his armpit repeatedly, moistening the hair.

EARS - The tongue fucks the ear hole. The only way to describe it is that it feels like an anteater sticking its long tongue down an ant hive and slurping away. And because it's the ear, you can HEAR the slurping just as much as you can FEEL it.

ASS - OK I get why some tops do rimming, it's sort of like the thing to do to loosen things down there right (I think). I must say I would never want to lick anyone's ass hole because of hygiene issues, but to be rimmed it actually feels quite good. LOL.

And the WORST thing is, when the guy is done licking you at all those places, he comes back up to kiss you smack on the lips (with tongue). And it's rude to not kiss back, but the thought of it makes me uncomfortable.

So what is your take on licking? :P

I apologize if the descriptions are too graphic or literal. 

Man Magnet

Just watched this video, it's quite hilarious the way ALL the men are going crazy for her.

But then again, wouldn't all of us want to have men go crazy about us? The feeling of being wanted.
Not all the time of course, but regular mini doses sure make you feel good about yourself don't it ;)

I consider myself a moderate attention seeker, not as extreme as some of those bitches you see on reality TV haha!



How much attention do you need?? :P

Going All The Way

So I wasn't quite satisfied with how my first sauna trip went. Think I chickened out.

It's addictive... the mystery of not knowing how the day will end or who you'll meet there. Maybe it's because this experience is still so new to me, I have the craving to go back for more. And so I did. On the very next day (today haha).

This time I went to Studio 89 around 4.30pm, which I first heard about from Takashi/Pluboy obviously. The guy at the register looked Thai. Signed up, got a membership card, towel, lube, condom and locker key. I wanted to check out the scene, because the owner of the other place said his clientele was more of middle aged and chubs. And I think Studio 89 is more targeted at Gen-Y?

Well from what I saw, I was one of the youngest there. Most of them were perhaps 30 to 40+?? But the guys here are definitely fitter and hotter looking. I felt intimidated because I was so inexperienced and there was a crowd inside. Everyone was sitting around and staring. I had no clue about the layout, so this time I really walked around like a lost sheep. People giving me stares, not sure whether it's the interested look or the WTF look.

I went downstairs to check out the private rooms area. This place is quite big. I went back up and stood by the corridor leading into a spacious dark room. I was too afraid to go in because I didn't know what was inside, but I saw guys walking in and out. So I just stayed at the corridor and looked at porn on the TV.

I thought it was going to be uneventful, then out of the blue a knight comes right in front of me and touched and kissed me... this was still at the corridor. I was standing there like a log. Initially I was taken by surprised and felt hesitant, he asked about my role, we were a match. He was hot, there was physical chemistry so I decided to go with the flow. He also had nice breath (just chewed mint). We went downstairs and you know what happened next.

Once again, even though we all know what goes on in the private rooms, it seems that 2 guys cannot just walk in openly in front of everyone. Everything has to be discreet, like one guy goes downstairs first, the other guy follows behind. Then the first guy slowly sneaks into a room... moments later the second guy follows. I don't understand why it has to be like that since everyone there already knows what's going on. But the sneaking and pretending is actually quite fun. LOL.

One thing I like about Studio 89 is that the private rooms are well equipped with tissue and a dustbin, and it also has a light where you can adjust the brightness!! It's so hard to see in the dark. LOL. Also the shower area was nice and I liked the smell of the soap.

Oh I want to ask you guys something, since most of you are more experienced than me.

How exactly do you engage a guy in a place like this?

I mean how do I know if someone is interested? 

What are the signals to look out for? 

If someone gives me the horny look and walks by me, am I supposed to follow behind?

If this guy didn't walk up to me and said out loud that he wanted to fuck me, I wouldn't have got the message. And another thing.... do you guys feel guilty about it after committing the act?  
When you're full of lust you feel compelled to do all sorts of things, but after that I just feel like a dirty slut. The feeling doesn't last long though... after some time when the lust comes back you jump right back in.

I still feel kind of dirty now... but I have a feeling I will be going back to that place again *smacks head*