Someone must have put high doses of 'Courage' into my food and drink, maybe it was 'Insanity'. I confronted Eric, not face to face, but through how I know best... Facebook! Actually what I did was cowardly, verging on crazy because I used my so called 'alternate' account, which had no real information about me, except gender...
Long story short, I sent him a message a couple of days ago thinking he would just treat it as spam. But today I saw a reply from him, so I replied and then he replied. Now I'm still waiting for a reply but I don't think I will get one. It went something like this:
Me: Eric, Can't stop thinking about you, and I hate it. Sorry for disturbing, that's my problem... I fall for ppl so easily. My radar tells me you're plu. Correct me if I'm wrong and help me get on my way.
Him: may i know who are u and how do u know me
Me: Sigh it doesn't matter. anyway thanks for replying.. wasn't expecting it. Btw u didn't answer my question. Think of it as helping me test the accuracy of my radar.. it has quite a bad track record LOL
Besides if you say you're not it will help me move on and I won't disturb you ever again.
Don't worry i promise i won't tell anyone, i'm not stupid.
Him: lol ...... seriously do u just jump into other people's lives thinking that it is appropriate without even introducing yourself
Me: Ermmm yea I'm a little crazy haha. See if you were plu you would understand my position. So maybe you aren't. There's so much more for me to lose for introducing myself, whereas you answering one question has virtually no risk.
I'm not a serial killer, not going to get your info and sell it or hack your accounts or anything lol. Just a hopeless romantic.
But then again you gotta point. I wouldn't reveal anything to someone i don't know either..... but it's just 1 question, if someone asks me i would probably answer.
OK never mind, i'm just talking to myself now...
Thanks for replying at least, you're nicer than i thought :p
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That was it. It's been 5 hours and no reply.
He isn't much of a talker, while I just blurt everything out.
But he didn't deny he was plu, or told me to fuck off. If he was straight he could have just said so right?
Why keep me hanging there? It's like slow torture...
I hope you guys don't think I'm crazy. I would never hurt him or do any scary stuff. Sending him mails might be disturbing, but it's decent content. No naked pictures or threats of any kind.
Haihhh I kind of regret doing it now.
if i were you, i'd not invest hope or time in him, even though if he's gay. coz he's just not that into you.
ReplyDeletewell maybe that's the reason why i still do not have a bf. so i m in no position to advise anyway. haha.
but i admire u for ur courage. hugs. double hugs. =p
Regardless of him being plu or not, and if I'm in his shoe, I would be erm..... full of questions.
ReplyDeleteWhy would someone for me that hasn't even know me? Or perhaps even get to know me as a friend first? And if that person (aka you) is fond of me, why not an introduction? And even I'm a plu, it isn't mean there's hope, bcos people dont just 'simply' fall for another person.
Well.. too much questions in the mind, if I'm Eric... lols
Just my thoughts.
Firstly, kudos to your courage for confronting and coming out SO CLEAN to him bout your crush for him! I would NEVER, EVER do something like that. Coz i fear rejection. Hate the feeling of being rejected coz it makes me feel like i'm..unwanted or a nobody and makes me feel very conscious of the perfection of my own inner and outer being. It just makes me paranoid at times.
ReplyDeleteWell, to me, i think his reaction would be actually quite appropriate to the situation la, coz if anyone were to send me a message like that, regardless of the person being attractive or not, i would still be shocked lor. I think la, it's best to give him some space and time to digest this lor. Who knows, he might find you interesting as well leh?
But no worries la, sometimes in life, no matter what happens, if something(or someone, in this case) is meant to be yours, it(he) will be yours. Chill la my 7-letter-apart-brother :) You have all of us here :) Just keep an open heart, and not put expectations too high, then smile to yourself, and tell yourself you've each and every right to live happily and smile always :)
I'm not surprised with Eric's respond... He's also not obligated to answer any of your questions.. In fact he's nice to not reject u immediately.. Should you have given in, the outcome would be better I guess..
ReplyDeletehe's either bored, or gay. either way, inconclusive! :O
ReplyDeletehave u tried checking ur mutual friends in fb? check if he's got loadsa gay friends!
@lucifer: yea i'm starting to realize that now.. even if he's plu he probably won't like me anyway
ReplyDelete@pikey: i'm afraid to reveal myself for obvious reasons.. we still see each other in uni, and what if he tells other ppl? plus i don't know why i fall for ppl so fast also...
@Qboy: i must have been love drunk when i wrote to him..yea i fear rejection too, but somehow i think that's better than never knowing how he feels and getting stuck.. So i'd rather hear the truth so i can lick my wounds and move on
@beyond: agree.. i think he was being polite to me
@kayson: nope.. no mutual plu friends that i know.. and none of his friends look plu.. then again u can't really judge by looking at display pics..
Hmmm..at least you have tried...even it's not a good way. If someone unknown were to write to you and ask for your sexuality, will u answer? I won't and I'm sure, you won't too! There are so many ppl doing social engineering on our life....
ReplyDeleteHey Sky, let's say a gay guy has a crush on me, and I happen to be straight (LOL!), if he wanted to know my sexuality, I would just tell him directly I'm straight, so that he can move on. After all, saying "I'm straight" is considered 'normal' and has no risk rite...
ReplyDeleteBut if i were actually gay, then i won't answer the question coz i wouldn't want to reveal that info to someone unknown.
I thought the way I asked Eric was simple and sincere. If you're straight, just say so. I'm not asking him to reveal anything else.
So maybe he is plu... But as all of them said, even if Eric is plu it doesn't mean he will like me.
J-boy, agree...if he is straight, he will reply you w/o hesitation and left no space for u to speculate. If he is (like u), then he will keep it open...just like his reply.
ReplyDeleteI agreee~~~! Absolutely.
ReplyDeleteNo means no but maybe means...maybe. :P
If theree's a need for extra possibilities then you know he's kinda...*bent*