Horrible Turn

Today was a very very bad day.
One of the worst since I entered Uni.

So MANY things went wrong, it was a combination of bad luck and mistakes on my part.
Eric hardly paid any attention to me today. I was already feeling so low, yet he looked as if he couldn't be bothered.

As if things weren't bad enough I started feeling sick. Was a little unwell and couldn't pay attention in lab. I was agitated by all the things that went wrong.

Was supposed to meet a friend for lunch but because of the problems before, I was half an hour late. He was pissed but didn't show it. I know I would if you make me wait that long. In the end we ate in the cafeteria instead of going out because he had another class soon. I hate eating there. Very crowded and hot, made me feel even more uncomfortable.

Actually there's another 2 hours of lecture in the afternoon but I couldn't take it anymore. Felt like I was going to burst into tears so I rushed home. It's a rule of mine to NOT cry about personal matters in front of other people, even family members.

Usually crying helps make me feel better. But no tears are coming out now. I guess I have calmed down. I'm tired. Maybe I should take a nap before facing the pile of assignments that will be due soon. Sucks. Tired, lonely, sick and stressed.

And guess what.. I discovered Eric's real name by chance. Yeah it required some googling and smart thinking. Next was Facebook. He used his chinese name instead of Eric so no wonder I had no luck before. Not much info except his hometown. No D.O.B or relationship status. At least there were some pictures. He had like 400+ friends, only 1 mutual friend that was my high school mate.

I'm starting to sense that he isn't plu.
Even if he is, based on how he treated me today I'm sure he has no feelings for me.
I'm really starting to think that I should forget about him A.S.A.P. :(