Post Emo

I'm over him. Not a 100% yet, but I think it gets better with time.

I still feel weak every now and then, especially when I see him online on Facebook.
Then I find myself stalking his Wall to see his activity.
He appears online briefly, then disappears. Maybe he's avoiding me. Maybe he came online to stalk someone else. Maybe he's already seeing a super hot guy.
He goes to the gym frequently. Celebrity Fitness I think. Probably meets lots of hotties and has lots of hot sex. Do all plu guys who go to the gym do that? I have no idea.

It's too tiring to guess. So I'd rather not. It's destroying my self esteem.

I'm fine.

It's been 3 days since I last wrote to him. Feels like an eternity.
I have really been itching to write again. So tempting to just ask how he is and all.
Credit to my bro Qboy who has been slapping me profusely every time I'm having a weak moment. Like a personal alarm clock that goes off every time my mind shifts to crazy gear again haha.

I think right now, if I have any self worth left I should stay as far away from him as possible. I mean Eric, not bro haha.. If Eric has even the slightest affection for me he should be the one who talks to me first. I don't want to be the desperate initiator anymore. It's cheap. And I want to give him the silent treatment for a change. Let's see how he likes the taste of his own medicine.

I'm not gonna stalk his Facebook anymore. You know he is actually kind of boring. And cold. Cute and handsome but his personality is as dead as a rock. I should have seen it earlier. I need someone who gives me affection, someone who actually bothers to talk back to me and can keep up with my craziness. I need someone more exciting. Doesn't need to be a crazy rock star but pls lah not a rock that sits around all day and basks in the sun. Talking to Eric is like talking to a piece of log. Who knows? I might actually get a better response from the log LOL.

I'm officially back to celebrating singlehood. Who needs a man anyway? I can do everything on my own for now!!