Just a quick post.
Thanks guys for your comments on the previous post, I especially like what Koala said :)
It was awkward as expected. I was so nervous walking into the room I felt like throwing up. The moment I walked through the door, he was there. We looked at each other for a micro second and went about doing our things. We were both uncomfortable. It was obvious. I could sense that he was avoiding me. And when I had to walk by him, I looked at a different direction.
Eventually things kind of settled. Because he is a senior and the role that he played, he had to talk to me at one point for reasons that I will not elaborate. Let's just say he had to... professionally. I guess there is no hate between us, but it's just strange and strained now. Oh and we can't look each other in the eye anymore. The moment there is any eye contact, we both turn away. So we were both looking at the table when we had to talk LOL.
I would be lying if I said it doesn't hurt. You don't just forget about someone and move on with the snap of a finger. It takes weeks, if not months. But it helps a lot if I don't run into him so often. Like the saying goes: Out of sight, out of mind! In a way I'm glad that this is the last Tuesday that I will see him. I think there is only one more session in this semester, and that's about a month from now. Plenty of time to get over him.
I want to take this opportunity to thank all of you, YES YOU! I know this is corny, but I'm thankful for your support and all. Even if you don't comment it's fine :) The reason I started this blog was to be heard you know. A place to share my thoughts and release all the penned up emotions. Being discreet, I never talk to my family and friends about these issues. You guys are the only ones that I confide in!! Blogger friends are generally more sincere than those you meet on other sites. And it's amazing how kind some of you are despite not even knowing me in person!
Alright I'm done with the mushy stuff :)
Life goes on, Eric is history. Or I should say he will be history. Eventually.
aww i'm flat like a tyre truck. :P wat brings a man out of a boy is being grown up.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad the day turned out alright for you. Now, on to more exciting things in life! :)
ReplyDeletelet's move on together-gether!
ReplyDelete"Blogger friends are generally more sincere than those you meet on other sites"
ReplyDeletevery true.. take care.. Jboy and Kayson together gether move on :) hahahaha...
Oh so i don't count la?! I disown you kor! *RAWR!
ReplyDeleteLmao. Joking la :p *huggies
couldn't agree more with tuls....
ReplyDeleteand i don't have any idea on why blogger friends are generally more sincere....
@Ash eats godiva ~ maybe because we are all on the same PLU boat and we dont know each other in person, there are no judgement made on us.. all you know about each other is thru our blogs.. there are no grudge against each other, not bias, no cruel intentions on each other.. what you see is what you get.. just as long as you dont go meet that blogger friend of yours in real life and you might just have a sincere relationship with him.. thinks change(sometimes) after meeting that someone in flesh and blood.. maybe sometimes things are just best left online i guess.. but thats not always the case :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad u r doing okay now... it's take time to heal, hugs
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear that you have finally realized...hug hug...
ReplyDeleteOwO high~ haha XD just be optimistic.. =)!! with whateva ur doing.
ReplyDelete:>!!
ReplyDelete@everyone: hehe thanks guys! *massive hugs* <3
ReplyDelete@bro: hahaha bro-hood trumps friendship any day la LOL. U have special status. hehe happy now? :P
@tuls: hmm does that mean i shouldn't meet any of u guys in person.. rather interesting being mysterious XD..
erm.. you can meet, theres nothin wrong with it.. im just saying ni.. its all up to you.. your intentions might be pure in just to make friends, but you will never know what the other guy is thinking and all.. haha.. does he have a certain expectation on you? what if he doesnt like the way you do certain things real life and all?!? blogs are all words and no actions whatsoever.. thats why bloggers are 'generally more sincere'.. :)
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