And So It Was A Phase?

To be honest it's not that unexpected.

I can say I'm back to my normal self now, no longer in the mood for all things love and romantic.

It didn't happen immediately. The change happened gradually... as the days past, I realized I don't really want to be in a committed relationship after all. The hope has diminished, not completely, but as I said, it has gone back to a level which I consider to be my 'normal'.

For the past 2 months I have been so uncharacteristically hopeful and let my emotions take hold, and kept telling myself that I would meet someone interesting who would also be interested in me, but sadly that never came about. Maybe it's because I'm busy with work, or that I don't go out to socialize or mingle enough to meet new people, or that I set my sights too high, or maybe I'm just not appealing to the men around me.

Whatever the case, 2013 has left me high and dry so far. It hurts the ego a little when you allow yourself to be open for something, only to realize that there's nothing. Reality is kicking in, and my heart is going back to a guarded state, thereby allowing my mind and rationality to regain control.

One thing hasn't changed though. I still don't really feel the urge to run out and have lots of casual sex hahaha like last year, so that's a good sign right! I mean I'm not going to lie and say I haven't had sex this year, but the frequency and intentions have definitely changed. :P

These days I'm spending more time with my hands hahahaha, and enjoying the hot men on the Internet :P

XOXO