Road To Recovery

OK, so reading back the past couple of posts, I think it's safe to say I have reached an unhealthy state. By the end of last night, I felt physically and mentally exhausted, and just cannot believe that I allowed myself to go so over board. Gone too far, my entire soul felt toxic, which is sickening.

It's not even about what Joe thinks of me anymore, it's about me losing myself over someone that doesn't even mean anything to me right now.

Special shout out to Danny, for hearing me out when I needed to talk to someone about this whole thing. And Danny, something you said really stuck to my head: "Is Joe really that important to you?". The answer is NO. I knew it all along, but I just needed to hear it come from someone else, like a wake up call.

I took your advice, and spent the whole day focusing on other things, doing things for myself, having fun, chilling out, spending some quality time on things I enjoy. Immediately felt so much better, like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.

I don't know why I get so worked up about crushes, and become so emotionally attached for no valid reason. It's insane. I can actually keep it together pretty well, it's just when I see him, that all those feelings start rushing back. I can't help that part. When I see him, things just happen.

For now, I just need to consciously remind myself to move forward and not think about him so much. And I'm sorry for the erratic behaviour of late, I haven't exactly been myself.

On the road to recovery..
XOXO